|Troye|
The light began shining through the window. But I had had no sleep last night. I reached over to my bedside table and pressed the home button on my phone. 5:50 1st January 2014.
Last night was new years eve but I had stayed in my house, browsing through tumblr and wasting my time. My life is wasted. All I do is mindlessly scroll through the internet. I watch videos of people that have such interesting lives.
My favourite group is O2L. Our Second Life. They are a group of 6 boys that share a YouTube channel.
I often wish that I could have a second life. A life that wasn't just passing by, one where I was actually living. Where I could become my own person, not just a human giving in to society.
Watching o2ls videos inspired me. I felt as though I friends. But I don't have friends, who wants to talk to the skinny boy that cries in public?
I think I have anxiety, I'm not sure though since I don't want my mum to take me to the hospital. The doctors would probably make me take some stupid pills. I don't want to be happy and feel normal because of some pills. I want to actually be better. Things like YouTube and Tumblr make me feel better, but as soon as I switch off my phone I go back to feeling like a mess.
Another reason people don't like me is because I'm gay. I came out last year and people said that it was okay. But even though they aren't blatantly homophobic they still treat me differently. People are so stupid, how am I any different to them. Why is it acceptable in this society for me to be treated as less of a person, but more of a fashion accessory. The only people that want to be my friends are the ones the want a gay best friend. They think that they're being nice but they don't realise how they're treating me.
I have decided that it's better to have no friends, its a lot less stressful. I mean I'm saying that like I have a choice. Really the idea of making friends with a stranger makes me anxious.
Hi I'm Rachael, the author of this. So this is really my first time trying to write a fanfiction. It is going to be Tronnor. Also it is AU
The chapters will probably all be short since I'm not a very good writer.
