The first glance

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Starting.....

7th grade, that's the first time I saw him. Even though he was supposed to be in my grade, something was off about him? Maybe the hair, the height, his eyes, the fact that he looked pale?? No clue, but I never thought that a small figure would be so important to my life next year...

Start of 8th grade

"WOOOOO 8TH GRADEEE" i screamed out loud to my friend! "WE MADE IT" Nara said. "Ong, I never thought I would pass" I said. "Maybe mr.t/n made you pass" Nara smirked, "EWW DON'T BRING THAT PEDO BACK" . "HAHAHAHAH" Nara laughed. "BRO HE WAS SO WEIRD TO YOU" said Nara ,"ONGGG" i said. "Oh well here we are".

Some months later (December)

I was just leaving the boba shop and then a random group of guys yelled "YO, MY FRIEND LIKES YOU" I turned around to see who it was. Oh it's him, the one guy from last year, oh well he'll probably deny it lmao. "WHAT I NEVER SAID THAT, she is kinda cute tho..'' I froze and turned my head slowly, his friends erupted into a cheer. 'Bro wtf..'. I went and told my group of friends because that shit was funny. "Broo he definitely likes u or sum, man you pulling Zara'' Nara said. "I just got rizz like that, jp jp he's prolly just playing around or sum". When we were laughing about it during the mid-day break, I turned my head to the left and I saw him playing soccer with his friends. I couldn't help but stare, DO I LIKE HIM?? No no there's no way. I tried shaking it off but my friend noticed something wrong. "What's up? U seem off" Nara said "nah im good" i said. I turned back to look at him.

The next day

I woke up and got dressed. You know, I did my morning routine before leaving. Went through the day as usual, until after school i went back to the boba shop. It's just a really calming place to cool down, but my heart raced when i saw him not looking in my way anymore. 'Why am I acting like this?? I'm pretty sure I don't like him". This went on for some days until i "man'd up" (i just made Nara give him a note asking to be friends). But before that it was science class (first block), we got some free time to go out and play and well i played volleyball. My friends didn't know how to play so I played with my classmates, but my friends started screaming my name when I passed the cafeteria. I looked back at them cause i thought something happened to them so i got scared and went to check up on them. Turns out someone was staring at me through the doors when i passed. Could you guess who it was?? Correct, it was Him. I don't know if he watched me for the rest of class but I was happy after that.

Last day before winter break

When I wanted to give him the note. Let's just say that he doesn't take stuff the easy way. At first he thought it was a love note (his friends even tried reading it). It was just me apologizing and asking to be friends, but oh well. He took it and I think he didn't show it to his friends (not 100% sure). Glad i left early that day...

I got home and saw a notif?? 'Someone added me??, WAIT OMG IT'S HIM HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT. 'okay calm down u got this your the man'. (i got scared right away) 'man Zara you're such a pussy LMAO'.

We talked for the whole winter break, it was probably the most fun i had, in a long time. We called since he begged to hear my voice, it was funny when he realized me and my sister had the same voice. I almost burst out laughing, but his voice was so nice, hearing his accent and everything was so calming. We called for one hour then i went to go to sleep

When we came back from break i was kinda scared but at least it was two days, and then a four day weekend. But something happened that I never thought would happen. "HE LIKES YOU" . I froze and turned around once again just like how I met him. 'Was he being serious? Nah his friend maybe was just lying'. So I just turned back around and walked away. ' He was joking right??' I just kept mumbling to myself. 'But his eyes looked sincere and this time he didn't deny it??' "OMFG HE MEANT IT, SHIT SHIT AND I JUST RAN AWAY LIKE THAT?" I tried running back to him but I couldn't, he left. 'Damn it'

I went home just thinking about it, 'man how could i be so dumb' i kept mumbling, about it to myself. I wanted to call him and confess, but he seemed way too busy and made an excuse. I got fed up with it so I just confessed right there on the spot.

I opened the message the next morning and I saw "...." LIKE THAT ISNT A FULL ANSWER? HE KNOWS THAT RIGHT? "That's not an answer" I said he said "uhm well idk what to say this is sudden" and there i knew it, i would get rejected. .BUT NOOO i felt my eyes lit up when i saw "i like you too". HE LIKES ME BACKKKK I JUMPED AND SQUEALED.

The next day at school

"YOU WON'T BE HERE? STOP LYING FR??" I screamed at him. (HE WASN'T COMING TO SCHOOL OKAY??). "Why are you screaming, miss me already?" He said, I hung up, mannn he knew me like a book when it was supposed to be the other way around. Oh well a day without him? What could go wrong??

Everything went wrong. I had the worst day you could imagine. When I got off school the first thing I did was text him. 'He was so right I really do miss him.." I talked to him the whole day because he made me feel at ease. He was nice and calming. Maybe he did make me feel at home.

Wednesday (1-18-2023) Before I confessed

I went to Ela class as usual since nothing really happened in mid-day. I caught him staring and his friends staring but that was really it. But then in ELA I was so shocked. "Hey, CL/N"?" I said. "Yeah wsp Zara ?" "dyk a kid like this tall, 7th grader, light brown hair, and dark brown eyes?". "Oh you mean Sam ? The one that likes you, and looks white?". 'What.' my face dropped. "HE LIKES ME??" I kinda screamed. " Yeah he asked like two people about you". Oh shit LMAO. "What did he say abt me?" I asked. "Oh well he was talking about how pretty you are and how he likes you" he said. "What did you tell him?" I asked. THE NEXT THING I HEARD MADE MY MOUTH DROP. "YOU TOLD HIM WHAT??"...... apparently cl/n told him I liked him back. Wrong move bro.

(Thursday, january 19,2023)

Another day at school... I hate school. It's always so boring but he makes my day better thankfully. But that day was something..? "Oh yeah, Sam told me he dont like you anymore." CL/N said. '...wtf? Is he playing me?' I thought. 'Oh how I'm so gonna beat his little shrimp ass' I thought to myself while I laughed. When I saw him the whole day my heart just sank.. It wasn't a good feeling. Later on he left early so I couldn't ask him anything. So I went to the park and texted him abt it, cause why not?? "Do you think he likes me??" I asked my cousin Layla "100% HE LOVES YOU ZARA WHAT ARE YOU ON??" she said. "Hmm kk" I said. Well later on when I was alone I texted him.

  "Hey uhm is it true what H/f/n  said" -z

"Wdym, what did he say?" -s

"He said sum abt you not liking me anymore? 💀" -z

"Oh i just didn't want him to know that" -s

(my slow ass brain didn't work so)

"If you didn't like me why didn't you say anything then?" -z

"No i said that i didn't want him to know" -s

"But you dont like me?" -z

"I do like you" -s

"Wait what but you said?" -z

"OH SHIT IM SORRY MB I UNDERSTAND" -z

"I SAID IT LIKE 3 TIMES ZARA 😭" -s

"I'M JUST A LITTLE SLOWW" -z

"Its okay" -s

(the first time he's actually okay with my slowness and not say nvm"

So uhm he still likes me, but did not want CL/N to know. I agree though if CL/N found out the whole school would know and that's just weird yk?