Heart to Heart | B.E

Part Five

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4 weeks later...
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"Wow, this is literally the first Christmas I've ever had without my brother," Nova says in disbelief as we sit in the library which happened to be a block away from my house.

"How does that make you feel?" I ask, softly playing in her hair as she lays in my lap.

"Horrible but he's better off there than here where he was miserable," She smiles at the thought of her statement, "Can't believe I haven't talked about it till now."

"Well, I'm happy to hear it," I lightly kiss her forehead, "Does this mean you're getting better?"

"You mean from the concussion or my brother?" She raises an eyebrow while simultaneously holding her head.

"Both I guess, but I was really talking about your brother," I shake my head playfully.

"Well, the head still hurts every once in a while but not too serious. Hope you know I'm getting revenge by the way," I give her a daring look after she says that which makes her shrug her shoulders, "As for my brother, I can't say but I live happier knowing he's in a better place."

I nod in agreement knowing that his death is still affecting her but because of the open mind she has, she's able to see the brighter side of things, "Happy to hear you're feeling better my love," I take a second to think, "Would you wanna have dinner at my house later tonight?"

She looks up with a sparkle in her eyes, "Fuck yeah I would, you know I love your family."

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"No Finn, put her down. She's still recovering from that concussion," I say to my older brother as he has my girlfriend over his shoulder.

"I'm fine my love," She gives me that smile that I've loved since day one. I sigh, letting them do that they do and head to my room.

After a few minutes of scrolling on my phone, I hear my door open. Looking up, I see Nova holding her head, "What the fuck did you do?"

"Bumped my head while we were play fighting," She says, not even looking back at me but going to sit next to me.

"That's exactly why I told him to put you down," I turn away from her and continue to scroll on my phone.

Noticing I completely ignored her puppy dog eyes, she moves to sit directly in front of me, "So, you're saying you don't care?"

"Not in the slightest," I shrug my shoulders, "I basically told y'all to stop."

"What if I started crying? Would you care then?" I see her out of my peripheral giving me an optimistic look.

I look at her in disbelief and turn back to my phone with a chuckle, "You're not gonna cry dude."

Soon as I say that, I realize she got really quiet so I go to look at her once again to see tears streaming down her face, "Are you seriously crying right now?"

"If I was, is it working?" She gives me a hopeful look but it's quickly wiped away with the shake of my head, "Damn, I thought that would actually work."

I grab her face with a laugh, "You're so cute I swear," I then kiss her, smiling at her stupidity through the kiss while wiping her fake tears away.

"I knew you still loved me," She smirks, kissing me back. I pause in the kiss after hearing her say that.

I look at her in shock as she looks back at me with a weird look, "What did you say?"

"Dude I was joking, I know we're not at that stage yet," She chuckles as I continue to stare at her, "Billie?"

"I love you," I state in a whisper. Her eyebrows furrow for a sec.

"Wait what?" We share the same shocked expression, "What did you just say?"

"I love you Nova," I say more confidently now, no longer panicking in my head, "I love you so fucking much."

She looks around the room, standing up from her position on my bed.

"What the hell are you doing?" I stare at her in confusion, the tone of my words having slight disappointment in them.

"You got cameras in your room?" She questions seriously, no expression on her face whatsoever.

"No?" I now answer in a questioning tone, wondering where she's going with this, "Are you joking right now?"

She gives a relieved sigh, returning back to her previous position in my bed, "Just making sure you weren't gonna say sike or some shit," She takes a deep breath, "I love you too Bil. Always have, always will."

I lightly slap her on the arm, "You fucking scared me asshole. I thought you were gonna say you didn't feel the same."

"Billie, we all know I loved you the moment I saw you," She scoots closer, "How could I not? You're absolutely perfect."

I blush a deep red but before I could respond, my mother calls out to both of us, "Food's ready, girls!"

"You heard her, come on," She drags me by the arm and leads us to the dinning where my mom, dad, Finneas and Claudia sit, waiting for us.

We sit down next to each other as my family starts passing food around the table, each of us getting one serving of everything.

"Holy shit, you guys even have vegan chicken!," My girlfriend exclaims with the brightest smile I've ever seen. It's amazing how much my family and I have grown to love this girl.

We all engage in our own conversations at the table, laughing and playing around. Safe to say, this is the best Christmas I've ever had.

"Your mother would've loved this, why didn't you bring her Nova?" My mom exclaims. I don't know how we got here but it's a question that's been on my mind as well.

Nova's smile falters a little. I noticed it but everyone else didn't, "I spent some time with her earlier. She wanted to be left alone for a little so I decided to call Billie."

"Is she feeling alright?" My dad asks with a worried tone.

"Yeah she's all good, just taking Devin's death a little hard at the moment," She gives a small smile. I've never seen her look so sad but so happy at the same time.

"If you ever wanna talk about what happened, you can come to any one of us," Finneas reaches across the table and softly takes her hand in his, "We got you, kid."

"Thanks man, I really appreciate i—" She cuts herself off and instantly reaches for her chest.

I grab her thigh to calm her down, "Baby, you okay?" I whisper to her as I watch her face contort in pain.

It was only moments later when I noticed the color in face change, "Finneas, call 911!" I managed to say just before Nova collapses on the table.

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A/N: Hate to say it but this book is slowly coming to an end but I'm gonna try my hardest to put something else together before this book ends