Ruined 18+

Is this hate?

'You will kill me na. Then why don't you slit my throat at once.Why are doing all these?  Ahh' Her words halted as he yanked her by pulling her neck so harshly that she cried out in pain.

'Listen to me Kaasni just because I didn't leave you there that night don't think I won't do that. I would love to see how you save yourself huh b*tch.'

Kaasni hold the side of the backside of the front seat for support. She literally can't bear with the pain. That night scars her the most. She was hospitalized for a whole week after whatever happened that night. That was the worst side of Abhimaan Rajvansh.
'So you better keep your little mouth shut and only say whatever you are told.' He said gritting his teeth.

Kaasni kept mum. She hated how she fears him everytime. But will this fear exist till she has existence?

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Kaasni woke up late in the evening. She was so tired that she couldn't get up early. She doesn't know what he exactly did with her last night after she was passed out, but he did not stop early for sure. She is feeling excessive pain even till now. And now she got her periods just after lunch. Luckily Abhimaan didn't bother her and left for his work.

She slowly got up and went downstairs, saw her mother in law instructing the workers for dinner.

She slowly approached towards her. But as usual she ignored her. Ever since she got married to her son she doesn't talk with her and as usual she doesn't know the reason.

She listened to her instruction and started working with others. She still consider herself as a servent in the house.

After her share of work she returned back to her room, yes her old room where she used to live earlier. She first took a bath then changed into a long gown which she was given by Rajvanshs during festivals. She then took her purse and went out as she needed to buy something urgently. Before moving out she checked her purse , she has only 100 rupees even though she was a working here for years but didn't get enough money. She has to pay them back a huge amount after all, but why she didn't know clearly.

As she finally reached a pharmacy shop her eyes landed on a group of girls who were going to school, her eyes welled up as she remembered how she was forced more like made to stop her schooling just before her board exams and ironically Abhimaan himself did this and he himself calls her uneducated. She moved her gaze and bought her medication and walked to the mansion. Even though the distance wasn't too much she was having difficulty to walk due to her stomach and back pain. She didn't have any money to ride a rickshaw.

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She was craving for chocolate. But didn't have a single penny. Asking Abhimaan was never an option for her. So she went down to the workers' kitchen to bring some sugar cubes. She was poor and she accepted her fate. Soon the night came which she feared the most. Abhimaan came back drunk as usual. From last week he is behaving like this only.

But his mood became more sour as she wasn't in his bed.
He directly move to her old room and started banging on the door. Kaasni came out running knowing he wouldn't mind to break the door.
'Saheb woh woh I was in the bathroom.'
She didn't call him Bhaiya this time remembering his threat. He smriked seeing how scared she was.

'STRIP' he said sitting on her bed uncuffing his cufflinks, kicking the door behind him.

Kaasni felt disgusted how he didn't mind to humiliate her  and said meekly  'Tabiyat thik nehi Hain Saheb.' She didn't want to tell him the reason. But she wasn't not in a condition to be physical with him. Heck she was never in a condition to be physical with him.

'Now what happened to my dearest wife?' No it wasn't out of care.

She bit her lower lips thinking if she should tell him or not.

'My body aches.' She said fidgeting with her fingers.

'I don't care whore, all I want is a hard f*ck.' He said getting up from her bed and pinned her down on the bed, pulling her harshly from her place. She gasped as he didn't give her anytime to understand anything. Soon her clothes were torn away from her petite frame. He also discarded his clothes. For him she became a drug, he couldn't resist her body.

She kept asking to leave her for today but he barely paid any heed to her. He was so drunk not to realise that she was bleeding already due to her menstruation. Also his intoxication was making her feel nauseous.

His eyes softened as her movement stopped. She couldn't fight back anymore. But soon his rage took over him and he thrusted inside her harshly.

'Please take it out, please saheb!' She said actually begged for the last time before she blacked out.

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She didn't get back her sense for the whole day. Aditi Rajvansh was out for her work otherwise it would cause a big problem, even though she doesn't care about her existence anymore.

She felt like a truck was ran over her, her whole body ached.

'He is so big and heavy.' She murmured innocently as he was twice of her size and weight. With great difficulty she got up , took a bath , wrapped herself in another long frock and again laid down on her bed.

Her mind was again blocked with thoughts what are his reasons for doing this. What has she done. From last 8 years she is staying here only. She never hurt anyone then why she is getting so much pain especially by this man who has many times thrown her out of the mansion for again some unknown reason.

At night she again moved to Abhimaan's penthouse. On the way she kept cursing herself,she did her own grave by rejected Aditi's proposal to stay with them, by Abhimaan clearly threatened her not to agree with their words and as a result she was again working in the kitchen of his penthouse for 30 people alone with all her body pain, she knows Abhimaan has called his friends and she will be locked in her room for tonight.

As she was done with her work she herself went to the store room and laid on bed, she ate a little food and took her meds. Looking at the sky through her room's window she laid emotionlessly. Does she really deserve the hate? And is this hate even? Do people hurt this much in hate? What will the end of this hatred and when?
Will she be able to bear this hate this time? She has faced his parents' hate, step mother's hate, step siblings hate,but now this time it's none other than Abhimaan Rajvansh, her personal tormentor from hell.

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