Lifeline

hurting

Natty pov

"Toad mhi pregnant" I said looking at how his mood fell and the guilt start to build up in the pit of my stomach.
"How you mean yuh pregnant natty, out of all the times yuh choose fhi breed a now" he said rubbing his hands across his forehead.

"All the time when mhi a tell yuh seh fhi use condom cause mhi nuh tek pill and yuh ignore it, yuh neva know that pregnancy was a must" I said and he sighed.

"Mhi want a pickney with yuh eno b, but now is not right time" he said and I looked away because the tears was coming.
"Leave, that's all you and yuh dutty friend can do, mhi nuh have to have you cause mhi have mhi friend Suh gwaan toad" I said and he walk over to me and held my hands.

"B mhi nah leave yuh but just think nuh yuh think we ready" he said
"Mhi been ready but Everytime I get pregnant for a man they want me to get a abortion but that was one mistake I made and mhi nah mek it twice Suh it's either yuh in or out" I shouted and he hugged me.

"Okay b mhi understand, text me when a yuh next check up" he said and I nodded.

He then left to go back to mobay and mhi walked inna the living where aleyha was playing with CB.
A over two weeks now Tyreese left har without no explanation and then Alisha post the wedding pon Instagram.

I know that aleyha is hurting but she pretend like she okay she thinks me or grandma nuh hear har a cry a night time and seh she a throw weh the food.

We just leave it that way and don't say anything and make her have her time to grieve.

I sat beside of miss Lucille and look at how she is staring at aleyha I Pat her back and she give me a soft smile before excusing her self to go to her room.

Mhi know she nuh like si aleyha like this and when aleyha sad everybody sad cause even tho she don't know seh a she bring light inna people life.

All topshotta a wah fuck him up but toad seh him deh a Atlanta with Alisha.

Mhi understand seh him left aleyha but fhi leave yuh own pickney and nuh feel nuh way bout it, is just Soo fucked up.

"Natts watch Tyler fhi mhi" aleyha said in a much softer voice than what am used to, this is one of the second time I heard her speaking in the pass two weeks other than saying thank you and good morning.

I want to tell her about me being pregnant but at the same time I want to wait on till she is okay.

I took up Tj and put him in some shorts and bring him in the pool.

Then miss Lucille come out and joined us.

"Yuh alright grandma" I asked.
"A first mhi ever a si Ali act Suh, a first mhi a si har like this an mhi honestly worried a two weeks now she nuh talk or eat fah har body cah run pon water alone" grandma said and I hugged her.

"Something nuh right bout this plus Tyreese wouldn't just leave Suh and guh married Alisha out of everybody" I said and she nodded.

"Ask toad nuh" she said
"Toad neven ago seh nun" I said.
"Tyreese mother a come up tomorrow, Suh maybe she will tell us"

I nodded before I looked at Tyler who was in the float fast asleep.

I smiled and give him to Lucille for her to put him down before I went and took a few pictures and uploaded them to Instagram.
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I went to aleyha room to see that she is sleeping and the all of her pillow is soaked I frowned and got in the bed and lay beside her and I heard her sobbed a bit.

"Talk to me please Aleyha" I said and she sat up.

"I can't put words to how am feeling right now natty
Mhi nuh okay and am tired of pretending I love Tyreese and God keep on a show whi seh wi nuh fit and mhi nuh think mhi can stop loving Tyreese Suh that ago hard fhi mhi move on plus mhi have him son Suh if him come back right now mhi still have to see him because we are Tyler's parents and we gone have to get along for the baby even tho mhi wah shot him inna him bloodclate mhi cya do that because a mhi baby father and mhi love him to heart but him just keep fuck me up and mhi stupid mhi dumb natty cause me always a guh back" she said and pulled her into a hug.

"There is a explanation fhi this Suh nuh give up pon him yet, cause mhi know Tyreese would Neva hurt yuh without a good reason mhi sure him all marry har fhi uno" I said.

"Yuh nuh sure bout that eno natty, but mhi just need time and space fhi cope with this and congratulations" she said and I looked at her.

"Mhi know yah breed" she said and I smiled and hugged her.

"Mhi love yuh aleyha and man can go but we ago always stick together Suh if yuh wah cry call me mek whi cry together because yah mhi best friend and best friend do everything together matter a fact yah mhi sister mhi love yuh more than mhi real sister because from mhi know yuh a just the two a whi Suh don't shut mhi out, all of yah guh kill a man call me, me will help yuh cause mhi love yuh aleyha" i said and wipe the tears that was now running freely down my face.

"Mhi love yuh to natty"

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