I've just arrived at school, and i'm completely confused. What makes it even worse is that its my first day of school and i barely made it in time. Thank God mom is in Greenland otherwise i would get my ass whooped.. I've finally found my class, and every one looks like they were forced to eat cement when they were six. Except for one girl. She's stunning. Her eyes, they look tired, they remind me of mist. They're green. Green just like a forest where the morning sun shines. Her skin looks as smooth as a mothers touch. Her hair - they're silky like the curtains i open every morning. They're as golden as the golden retriever i had when i was nine. I immediately knew that i want her to be my friend. she HAS to be my friend, or even more..?I can't get my eyes off her. As i continue looking at her, suddenly she takes a quick look at me. I panic because i don't know what to do and she might think that i'm weird.. All i can do is hide my face so she doesn't see my awkward smile. Now thirty minutes have passed just by staring at the girl, since the teacher is late. I've decided to stop staring at that beautiful girl because that's a bit creepy. I started counting flowers out of boredom that i was supposed to give my teacher, just they are old.. and.. i got them from my grandma's basement... Well there's nothing i can do about it, so as i counted my flowers i realised that they are only eight flowers. I've lost one somewhere on the streets probably, but maybe grandma specially gave it to me so i could go to ''funeral'', of course joking, it's just that my teacher had to be old. But if I could, I would give one flower to that beautiful girl. Finally the teacher came, and it's time to go inside school. The teacher wasn't old at all, the girl i like has an old teacher.
The first day of school passed really fast. I had to sit with my classmate and as i remember his name was Renard. I heard that he was really forced to eat cement.. but he didn't do it, thank God. And again, I can't stop thinking about that girl. I should give her a nickname since i don't know her name and i don't want to call her ''beautiful girl'', i'd do that only when we're friends or even more. I'll call her Jannet. I need to befriend her somehow. Maybe I have to make a ritual? I can take pictures of her and print them, that's nothing really much, right? I decided to calm down since that was too crazy.
Today i came home school later than i should. BUT, i'm glad i did. Father told me to buy a pack of sugar, nothing much, right? The thing is i came home two hours later, which is kind of late.. The reason i came so late was because first, i got my sugar pack and i was on my way home, which is nothing. Then as i walk normally i see a brute homeless man, that i'll call Anton, who keeps staring at me. I didn't look in his eyes but i know he was staring. Just as i continue walking i suddenly drop my pack of sugar. I pick it up, and finally look in his eyes. He started screaming at me. I wouldn't care if i understood what he's saying, but he's russian. And of course that really scared me, I almost started shaking. He even came closer to me, that made me want to cry. I told him that i don't understand russian, he went quiet for a few seconds and just said the same thing just louder.. suddenly, something touches my hand. I got scared because I thought another Anton is going to kidnap me, but no. IT WAS JANNET. SHE WAS THE ONE THAT TOOK MY HAND. She pulled me to the other side of the park, and explained to me what he had said. He said :
''WHAT ARE YOU STARING AT, YOU THINK I PUT A CURSE ON YOU? I'LL GET PETER FOR YOU THAT WILL SURELY PUT A CURSE ON YOU."
I thanked Jannet. I barely could do that because i started blushing, and a lot. I guess she's good at russian. Just as i was about to ask for her name, i see her running at her friend and laughing. I suddenly felt jealousy and despair. It makes me sick and my stomach hurts from it. Maybe she came to me just so she could laugh at me later, and maybe Anton said something else? I seriously didn't know how to feel and what to believe.. I continue going home and trying to forget about it all, by eating gum.
Im home and i don't know what to do, so i tried to spend my time by creating comics and thinking about Jannet. The time passed fast, and its seven. I'm really tired so i've decided to go sleep without eating dinner. I slept well, but father came in my room and woke me up by turning on the light, telling me to eat, but I couldn't be mad at him because he just wanted me to eat. Just the thing that made me a bit mad was that i had a dream about Jannet, but I can't remember it so I should just ignore it. The only thing i remember is that we were sitting on an asphalt, and above us is a bridge. That also felt really weird, but at least i had a dream about her and i remembered a detail about it.
