I Need You In My Life (Hyunlix)

《talk to us..》

!!tw self-harm!!

-felix-

Fuck..why did i do this again..i was clean so long..4 month..and now just cuz my crush is dating someone..

Sudenly i heard someone knock on my door "heyy lix are you okay?" It was Seungmin "yes im fine haha just tired" "Oh okay..well come out please we are watching a movie"

Shit shit shit..i have to clean up.. damn!

I went to the sink and washed my Cuts and put some bandaids on.. After that i went to the livingroom

"Soo guy what are we watching??" Chan said being excided "hmm how about this one?" Changbin said and Pointed at the TV "yes sure" chan said.. i saw really lost.. my arm was hurting like shit.. sudenly hyunjin grabed my arm mid in the movie and went to talk to me in our room "ouch damn wtf?!" "Felix what is wrong With you?! You dont talk to me or anyone!.." "uhh leave me alone i dont want to talk" "Is your Depressionen geting worse again?! Why didnt you told me?!" "H-huh?" "I saw the bloody blade on the bed and the first aid kit.."

Fuck..fuck fuck fuck!!!

"Felix why dont you talk to us?" "I dont need your help..i can do it alone.." "you cant! In the end your gonna fucking die" i stood there in shock..i couldnt say a word i was just standing there and looked at hyunjin. But then he huged me and looked me in the eyes

"Felix please dont to this again.." he said sobing "im sorry i-i just cant get my felling for y-" "huh?" Hyunjin looked at me with big eyes "nothing sorry" i said and pushed him away and went into the livingroom again
"What was that about?" Minho asked me "he knows..about my Depression.." i whispered
"Oh damn im so sorry.." minho said i fidnt cared at this point what he thinks of me and why he thinks things about me..

    ||~after the movie~||

I felt asleep on hyunjins shoulder. Sudenly someone woke me up it was hyunjin

"Ahh lix you had a good sleep?" He asked me and i just noded. Than i stood up and went into our room and sat down at the bed and started to Listen to some music. Sudenlly soneside if my bed went down a bit, as someone sat down. I looked up to see hyunjin. I took out one airpod.

"Hm?" "Uhm you habe felling for me..?" I panicked "no?" I was avoiding eye contact so i just looked back at my Phone. Hyunjin that snached my phone
"Why? Why didnt you told me?" "Told you what? I dont have fellings for you. Your my best friend i cant have fellings for you" "lix.." i didnt wanted to talk about that so i just looked down. Hyunjin Was still trying to talk to me. I just didnt answerd or i told him thats not true. After a time he gave up and sat down at his bed and started to text

-hyunjin-

Felix wasnt gonna talk to me but i know who is gonna talk with me. Minho..

[Minmin♡]

Hey bro. You know about felixs self-harm Problem?. Cuz he started again:(

Yes i know..sadly. i dont know how to help him.

I dont know to..i dont know what to do. I love him hes like my best friend and i dont want hin do die..?

I know neither do i. But maybe i could talk to him?

Yes please do. But maybe not now.

[Chan end]