I'm so tired of fake smiling
I'm so insecure about my
teeth so i don't smile with
my teeth, my brother makes
fun of my teeth when i do smile
with them, I pretend I'm always happy
n joyful when I really stress everyday
I don't know how I'm gonna go through
middle school. I'm slowly loosing all my
friends n tbh i deserve it. most of the friends are fake as shit n are ungrateful, they're disrespectful towards there mom n i say to myself everyday that theres no need to kill myself when i have some amazing friends otherwise if i didn't i would've been killed myself... my insecurities been going on for quite awhile now, 3 years. I self harmed for 2 years n Iv'e done it again for a couple months now.
what if i killed myself would anybody
care ?? no they wouldn't care at all
I feel like I'm just that one friend that
really come up with good ideas n stuff
n just my other friends copy after it
I feel like I'm always that one friend
that doesn't listen to positive music or
good music bc of how insecure i am
I may not show it on the outside
but on the inside i hurt a lot n its not
fair for me or anyone of my friends
bit even my family its very unhealthy
my mental health is fucked up just like
i said earlier I tell my friends that i watch
kid shows just to act cool n the way they react
is the the way i thought they would..
I'm just a fucked up messed up liar that
is a spoiled brat.
are my edits even good anymore ??
no they aren't none of my edits were
even good first of all.
