Inferno Hearts

Part 3

Enzo and I have been on a precipice of completing the mating process. Every time we get close to taking that next step we get interrupted or he has to leave. Because he got the title of Alpha he keeps getting pulled away to start his training although nothing is official yet though because Maze still has to go through his change.

If he turns out to be an alpha as well, which he most likely will be, then one will have to leave or they will have to battle out.

The conversations I've had with Enzo have been sad. He's been distraught over it.

"He's my best friend, we grew up together. I always knew it could be a possibility for me to be one but I never imagined it would actually happen. I thought I'd be a warrior like my dad or a tracker like my mom. Even if I were to become one the answer had always been so clear. I would just leave. He had always been excited for our changes. Hoping I'd be his beta so we would never grow apart."

"How come it's not so clear anymore?" I had said confused.

"You. I won't leave now. Now that I know you're mine and that I finally have you. I would protect you with my life. Living as a lone wolf wouldn't be a safe environment to have you in. I don't want to be separated from you for even a couple of minutes. How would I manage being out there without you? Not that I'd let you but would you really leave behind everyone and everything in your life. Your aunt, graduating, Eliza."

An air of melancholy surrounded him. It made me pause in my thoughts with the force of his emotions coursing through our bond.

"I would follow you to the ends of the earth, the depths of the sea, into the darkness of time, and so much more Enzo. Don't let me be the reason for you not leaving. I don't care about anything else. I'm going to be by your side."

"You don't understand Amoura. I'll have no territory, no pack, I won't be just a regular lone wolf but an alpha lone wolf. I could be attacked at any moment just for existing." He looked at me so intently I didn't know what to say. My brain rushed to find a solution.

"Why not make your own pack then? You're an alpha, people will follow you." He kind of chuckles humorlessly and puts his head in his hands.

"That is so much more complicated than it seems. So many problems. I would have to claim unmarked territory or fight someone for theirs, which I don't have the strength or numbers to do so. I can claim territory but don't have the numbers to hold it. I would need to find people to join, but trying to convince people to join that already are bonded into a pack is a crime, along with forcing them of course. Unless they willingly leave and sever bonds with the pack and even then some packs don't allow people to leave.

That leaves me with making a pack with other lone wolves or smaller packs but that could be dangerous because there's the issue of why they are pack less and if they were exiled. And that all can take so long and it is not an experience I want you to have to be a part of. It's way too dangerous, I wouldn't be able to do all that and protect you at the same time, one would have to give." His voice got more tense as he kept talking.

I was at a standstill of what to do or say. "Exactly. That only leaves me the option. To fight like I've never fought before. There's one advantage I have over him. I have a mate who I would fight to the death for. He doesn't have a motivation as strong. I can beat him, no matter how much it'll hurt to do so." I let the conversation fade away as I laid my head on his back.

Tonight Maze goes through his change. My heart races from my anxiety. I try to calm my emotions and thoughts before they start to bleed through the bond.

It'll all be okay.

***

Drip. Drip. Drip.

My sweat drips off my face hitting the sink I'm hunched over, grasping it in pain. Tremors wrack through my body. I grit my teeth as I wait for this episode to end. The pain has gotten worse. My desire becomes stronger with each tremor.