The forest way ✔️

Chapter 3 {jaspe pov}

(Sorry i can't remove the image. This chapter gets kinda gory so you have been warned now)
- 2 years later -

We have been living here in the forest for now.. i don't know how many years, I'm to stupid to know that right now but from what i know, this is getting hard. I have been feeling really anxious any time i see a hunter or a person but it's not the same as anxiety kind of feeling but it's more of a urge, Like i need to clench my thirst for something. Blood. OH SHOOT THERES BLOOD. I run over to Miko and help him up after he fell down off of Soras back, he hasn't been feeling good lately do to some sickness i believe, I'm unsure. Ugh! Only if that damn lab teaches stuff about sickness i could help! "Are you ok?" I say to Miko, helping him up, letting his arm around my shoulder. "Yeah, I'm fine. Thanks" he said to me while he was trying to get his balance back. I help him up and hold his waist while he stands by himself. Sora was standing close by the full time, it's been a long whole sense ambers passing and i can tell it had affected them a lot, but not me.. i don't get it. Why can't i feel remorse for death? ITS AMBER IM TALKING ABOUT HERE! I just don't get it, nor myself at that. Miko gets his balance and i let go of his waist "will you be ok?" I say to him and keep my hands near to catch him, just in case. I don't want him to get hurt. "Yeah I'm fine" he said and pats my wrist and i low my hands to my side "ok.. good" i say with a nod. I'm taller then Miko, by a bit. He's 5'7 and I'm 6 foot. I think? I'm bad at math, i Pat sora and then head out into the woods to find the river or stream again but then i see someone and that feeling comes rushing in again. A lab technician who i know. The same one who made me who i am, the one who took me to the lab. "YOU!" I yell loudly but not enough for Miko to hear, i don't think sora heard me. I jump over it and lunge at the lab person and punch, punch, and punch. I punched him so hard i think i heard cracks in between hits in his head. I then kick him in the side and he wheals in pain. Like he was before when i was punching him like a bag. I hear hoofs stomping towards me and then i quickly turn around and realize there's blood on my hands and i wash it off in the stream or River, It's one of the 2. I kick the man's side again and this time i kick him so hard his body moved away from me. "What's up sora" i look over at the man for a moment and then back at sora"don't mind that, he's someone i knew" Sora throws her head and her black mane sways side with her head. She turns around and canters back to where we normally hang out, by the tree where i first met Miko, I love that spot. But i must take care of trash before i can go back to my.. friend? Yeah, friend. Not something i need to protect much, he can take care of himself quite well, I don't need him in my sights all the time, Ugh now that he's on my mind I'm worried. I take a stick and put it through the lab man's stomach out of.. wait.. i just stabbed him without realizing... I'm so confused, how? I JUST STABBED A MAN! OH MY GOD! SHOOT! I frantically look around and hope Miko is not around to see and he wasn't, what i just did and i pick up the man and start running away to the old lab, the same one i was taken to when i was barely even 1 years old, i think? I'm to stupid to know.. what's another word i can use?.. I'll ask Miko later. I run to the lab and drop down the man at the door and knock, ones i knocked i ran for my gosh darn life. I'm not about to get back in the place! They did tests on me and stuff, maybe that's what's making feeling this urge to.. kill... i do remember them saying something about making us kids killing machines but i expected before they could when i was just 6 or 7.. i forgot again. After 10 minutes of running and jogging i make it back "hey!" I say happily and check up on Miko. "Here" - i give him a hand so he can get up. He stands up and then looks up at me and i have this feeling again, not the same as the other one where i want to kill but it's different, i don't want him to be so sick, i want him to be ok.