Lassoed by love || Sadie Adler x OC

Just a couple more days

Sadie Adler

My husband was gone. The only man I ever loved taken away from me in a split second. I couldn't stop crying no matter what the girls would say to me. I don't know what to do. Everything I've ever owned is gone. I pull the blanket more over me as I look around the room. All of these faces but my eyes land on one. The girl with the hat over her face huddled up in her coat. She must of felt my eyes on her because she lifted her head and that's when I saw her face. She was absolutely beautiful. I stare at the right side of her face and see a scar running down her eye all the way down her cheek. Her eye had a milky layer to it and had almost gone white but her other eye was a beautiful Hazel.

There was something about her gaze that was terrifying but exciting. A piece of her dark hair fell out of her hat that she quickly pushed back. Her hair was in a low bun with her hat sitting on top of her head. She drops her gaze almost as if she knew I was focusing on her scar. I wonder how she got it, it doesn't look to old.
"Don't mind Cassie" I hear the woman who introduced herself as Mary Beth.
"She looks terrifying but she is really sweet" She says with a smile.
"Her name is Cassie?" I softly ask and Mary Beth nods her head.

"Cassie Lockwood is her full name" She says before wrapping her scarf back around her mouth. The beautiful strange seemed to have distracted me for a bit but now my mind is flooded of thoughts of my husband and what those O'Driscolls did to me. I want all of those bastards dead. Every single one of them. I close my eyes and try and stop the tears falling but there was nothing I could do to stop them. I hear footsteps and I open my eyes and see Cassie looking at me before she walks out the door. I could see her through the window she was walking slowly towards a very big horse. She pats the horse on the neck and throws her blanket over him.

Maybe shes not as terrifying as she looks.

Cassie Lockwood

A few days had gone by and I decided to not go with the boys on their missions. I was still angry with Dutch and he knew it so he didn't push for me to come. I wanted to stay back and make sure John was alright. The stupid boy had gone and got himself eaten by some wolfs. I should have gone with him but he insisted he would be fine. I look at him as the others load him onto the wagon. I still see him as the little boy I took care of. The storm had finally settled and the wagons were free.

"You should ride with us Cas" Tilly says but I shake my head and climb onto my horse.
"I'm better on horse back" I say and she gives me a soft smile. I squeeze my horse to walk forward towards Arthur's wagon. He climbs on top as Hosea takes a seat next to him.
"Still making sure John's okay?" Arthur asks and I shrug my shoulders.
"Old habits" I say looking forward.
"He's not a little boy anymore Cassie. I wish you would stop seeing him as that" I look at him.
"You're still angry with him" I say and Arthur scoffs.

"Of course I am! He didn't even apologize for leaving. Did he even apologize to you?" Arthur asks and I look away again.
"That's exactly my point. John owes you a lot and he can't even give you a proper apology. Until he does I'm not forgiving him and neither should you" He says.
"He has realized his mistake" I say.
"But he has done nothing to fix it. He still has even ignores his own boy" I shake my head.
"Enough Arthur" I say squeezing my horse forward.
"Cas wait...I just...you deserve..." Arthur couldn't find the words and I shake my head.

"Arthur, I don't need an apology to forgive him. He's all ready forgiven. He'll make things right with his woman and boy, one day" I say and send my horse into a trot. I never asked to help raise John. When he came to us just a boy and attached himself to me I couldn't bare not to look after him but in a way Arthur right. John is not the boy I once knew anymore. He barely listens to me and would rather choose to run away from his problems then face them. I suppose I'm not the best role model either. He would be horrified if he knew the truth about me.

Once everyone was ready we all headed off. I fall back and see Sadie began to cry again. Why is she still crying? I shake my head. Stop it where is your empathy.

You don't have any empathy.

I shake my head roughly and focus my attention onto the road. I hope we settle some place soon I need to get away and do what makes me calm. I can feel myself losing control slowly. I can still last a couple more days. Just a couple more days.

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