I'll stop when I'm thin anorexia.

Chapter two

Chapter 2

I walked out of the nurse's office not paying attention to anything when suddenly I bump in to someone and fall. I look up to say I'm sorry and it's my best friend River. She helps me up and started to laugh. I wanted to avoid River she can always tell what's on my mind . I wanted to keep this weight loss a secret from everyone especially her. When she was done laughing she asked me if I wanted to go to breakfast with her . I told her know I all .ready ate what was I gonna tell her at lunch she knows I'm always hungry at lunch. After she leaves I check my phone to see how much time till the bell rings. 7:16am school starts at 7:40 good that will leave me enough time walk around the school that should burn some calories I told my self. As I walk around the school I look at some of the skinny girls I noticed boys are always around them. Maybe if I lose weight my crush will notice me. His name is Jeff he had dark brown hair swooped into a quiff and blue eyes he was perfect. We had every class together not like he noticed he only talked to me once and that was to borrow a pen. Suddenly the school bell rang I walked to class and sat in my seat. I hated first hour Ms. Nolan she was a real bitch. First hour ended and the rest of my classes went by fast. The bell rang for lunch I waited for River in our normal meet up spot . "Addie I'm starved are you"? She asked I didn't no what to say. " Uh no i'm not hungry today. She looked at me wide eyed "oh ok well I'm gonna eat". Was I really that fat that she was shocked I wasn't hungry. River could eat all she wanted she was skinny and tall long blonde hair and green eyes she always had a boy friend. After she got her lunch we sat in one of the booths. As she was talking he stopped and said "what's wrong Addie you seem different, why aren't you talking"? I'm just not feeling good I told her but she could tell I was lying. So I asked her about her boyfriend "how's William River"? That got her off the my case and she went on about how much she loved him. When i'm skinny i'll have a boyfriend. After lunch the day went by fast before I knew it I was back in the car driving home. Allie tried to talk to me but I ignored her. After school I was so hungry but I had to stay strong so I went to my laptop. I open the cold sliver MacBook and googled anorexia. I was brought to this proana sight it told me all that I need to know like.

Drink water not juice or soda.

Eat ice or gum when hungry.

Never eat mor then 700 calories.

Take clod showers it burn calories.

Workout twice the amount of calories you ate.

Avoid dairy at all causes.

Never eat past 6:00pm or four hours before bed.

Eat on smaller plates.

I wrote down the list of rules in my diary. I also googled some skinny models. I picked my favorite model Cara Delevingne to be my thinspiration she was perfect. By the end of my weight loss I wanted to be as thin as her. Kids dinner is ready my mom called. Oh no what am I gonna tell my parents we usually have dinner together. I walk down the stairs slowly trying to come up with an excuse. As I walk in to the kitchen I tell my mom I'm not well and I'm going to take a nap she bought it.