Sun Harbor

Chapter 11: Wounds

TW: TALK OF SELF HARM

I normally would write in Jo but i don't have it with me, i lost it during the move to Massachusetts, maybe it's in one of the boxes,

But anyways,

I got a different journal, Tally gave it to me,

She's really nice, she's given me food and a bed, i don't have to do Anything in return, when we arrived here in Sun Harbor, Sasha, Anne and I got separated,

Just like Amphibia,

I got Sasha back but I'm still so so very worried about Anne,

There's no trace of her anywhere,

No no no don't start overthinking...please..I can't do this...I seriously can't do this right now...

She's not dead,

I know she's not,

But please...Please...

Don't be Dead...

Right now it's so hard...I can't stop cutting....

The adrenaline rush I feel when I do...the pain fades away...

Everything goes away...

I feel so fucking ashamed...

I can't tell Sasha or Anne...they'd hate me...

Its so hard to stop...

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"Marcy?"

"Marcy?"

"Hey Marcy!"

Marcy turned around and Sasha was in the door frame

"You okay?" She asked

"Mhm..! Marcy nodded as she closed her notebook and put it in her bag,

"I wanted to come check up on you...you look like you need cuddles,"

"Please...There's been this feeling of....guilt building up in my stomach..."

Sasha hugged Marcy closely and Marcy fought back her burning tears

"None of this was your fault Marcy..."

"But it was..!...if I never found that box...none of this would've happened...first Amphibia...now we'r-"

She was interrupted by sasha who kissed her lips gently and held her close by the waist, the tears fell from Marcy's eyes as she wrapped her arms around Sasha's neck

Sasha pulled away and looked at Marcy,

"Don't blame yourself...please..." Sasha was not usually the type to show vulnerability but she had a look of sorrow across her face,

"..Sash....i promise...I'm trying not to...but...it's so hard..." Marcys voice was starting to break,

Sasha just held her close, she did her best to comfort Marcy,

She and Marcy both laid down on the Soft bed Sasha held Marcy close to her and ran her hand through their hair,

...

The pain on Marcy's wrist was harsh, she couldn't handle how her sweater brushed against her closing wounds, she held her wrist and squeezed her eyes shut, but it caused her to tense up, making Sasha notice

"Marce..? Are you okay...?"

"Y-yeah..! I'm okay...!"

Sasha sat up and looked at Marcy concerned,

"you don't look okay..."

Marcy held her wrist protectively but it made the pain worse, making her involuntarily yelp

Sasha held Marcy's wrist and it made her eyes widen

"No..please...!" Tears formed in her eyes again

Marcy flung backwards by accident and Sasha ended up on top of her, unfortunately for Marcy

Sasha was still holding her left wrist

"Show me...what's wrong..?"

"I said no!!!"

"Marcy!! Please!!"

Marcy flinched a bit as Sasha grabbed both her hands and held them down so Marcy couldn't do anything and she looked at Marcy's left wrist, the one that was very pained,

"SASHA!! GET OFF ME!!!" Marcy cried out as Sasha was practically crushing her,

"You have to tell me what's wrong!!"

"GET OFF ME!!!! SASH!!! GET OFF!!!" Marcy kept crying,

Marcy froze as she felt one of Sasha's hand grab her hand and the other hand grabbed her sleeve

"NONONONO!!! SASHA!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!?"

Marcy tried to push Sasha off but she managed to pull Marcy's sleeve and there they were, the scars, the cuts, and three brand new ones bright red and angry like they weren't even cleaned properly,

Marcy started sobbing uncontrollably and she grabbed the scalp of her head and pulled at her hair she was shaking horribly

Sasha realized what she had done, she regretted it almost instantly,

"Oh my god..Marcy..!! I'm so sorry..!!"

Sasha hugged Marcy close to her and Marcy was trying to calm down, she knew what Marcy meant by "guilt"

"I'm so sorry Sasha...I'm so sorry..."

"Shh...I'm sorry...I shouldn't have held you down and scared you like that...I'm so sorry Marcy..."

Sasha held Marcy's exposed wrist and she gently kissed Marcy's cuts and scars,

"You don't...hate me...?"

"...What...? Why would I hate you..?"

"I'm the reason we got stuck in Amphibia...I'm the reason Anne died...I'm the reason you have Ptsd..."

Sasha hugged Marcy close

"We grew from Amphibia...I wouldn't be the person i am today without it...Anne chose to sacrifice herself to protect the worlds, it's just a burn...I'm learning how to manage..."

Marcy took a deep breath in

"And besides- we've got matching back scars-!"

Marcy giggled with tears in her eyes

"That's true..!"

"We'll find Anne, I know we will."

Marcy nodded and lays her head on Sasha's shoulder and exhales

"I love you Sash.."

"I love you too Marcy.."