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Colby pov

I hug Reggie as he enters the room. He leans deep into the hug. He had to be having a harder time than I was. I mean, he was Jake's brother. I walk him over to the couch. His eyes were puffy and he looked exhausted.

It's been 3 days since the incident. Jake was live-streamed by several people, as he drove himself into a wall, at over 100 mph, causing many accidents. When he hit the wall, there was a massive explosion. Hurting people around him on the street. His body wasn't found, they assumed in some way it was disintegrated and destroyed in the explosion.

I felt horrible about it. The one friendship I knew I was still going to have was gone. I don't know why he would do it, he could have gotten past this. Maybe everything just overwhelmed him. And he thought bad things. I feel too much like this is my fault, that maybe I should have watched him, and made sure he was okay. But I'm struggling anyway. I'm so exhausted now that even that stuff happening made me fall asleep instead of helping Jake.

I had a hold of pity in my heart. For both Corey and Reggie. Even though Jake had sex with Devyn, Corey was friends with Jake for so long and trusted him. He must not even know how to feel right now.

Reggie and I talked. It was a nice talk, about both deep and stupid things. Kinda like the things that Sam and I would talk about. God, why did I think that? Now I feel a little bad that I might be talking like this because I miss Sam. God, what the hell is my life?

Corey walked out of his room with a bag. Devyn was behind him, her head still hanging down. He looked back at me for a second. We made eye contact, then he scoffed and left. I don't know if he'll come back here, but hopefully, he'll contact me again.

Reggie stood up and went to the kitchen for some food. Last night, I had the same dream I had 3 nights ago, with Sam that were super realistic. Almost everything was the same. But at the end of it, I heard Kat whisper the words "find me." and saw flashes of place again, only it was clearer.

Maybe I should visit Kat.

Reggie walked back into the room and sat down on the couch. "What're you thinking?" He asked. I guess I looked like I was thinking.

For some reason, I wanted to visit Kat. "Wanna go see Kat?"

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We both got into my car. My car which I haven't driven for 3 months. I took a deep breath as I started it. But I felt like I needed to see Kat, and I didn't wanna make Reggie drive. So I had to just do this. I could take it slow and be safe. I just gotta do this. I pulled out of the parking spot. And that feeling came back. The one I got when driving to the station to see Sam. The last time I saw him. When he revealed he was crazy. When he ripped my heart to pieces and destroyed my life.

Every part of it.

"Do I need to drive?" I heard Reggie ask, "It's okay, I can do it." I nodded. We switched seats. God. My stupid feelings got in the way of this. I pulled out my phone and typed in her address, then he started driving. I got it when we were planning to meet up. I was gonna pick her up, because I was planning on being able to drive by then, but I couldn't. So we were just gonna meet and she didn't show. And now my life is this. I took a deep breath. I just needed to stay calm. "So why do you wanna visit Kat?" he asked.

"Huh?" I snapped out of my thoughts.

"I just asked why you wanna visit Kat," he said.

"Oh," I chuckled, "You want me to be honest with you?" I asked

We looked at each other for a second. "I guess"

I hesitated, then said it. "Well, I've had a weird dream with Sam in it. It happened 3 nights ago, then last night. The only difference was I heard Kat telling me to 'find her'. And this morning I've been thinking about it a lot, and while you were here I had a sudden uh- desire to find her. So before you call Bullshit, know that this is just to calm my nerves."