At My Worst (Teen Love Series #2) (Ongoing)

CHAPTER 1

MEET MR. GUITARIST

Jerome's Point of View

"I need somebody who can love me at my worst. No I'm not perfect but I hope you see my worth. It's only you nobody new I put you first. And for you girl I swear I'll do the worst."

While playing my guitar, singing it with my angelic voice, and beating the music surrounds. Naks! I totally feel that I'm on a concert. Sarap sa feeling.

"Oh, oh, oh --" Napatigil ako sa pag humming nang biglang bumungad sa harap ko si Lola.

"Huy, nagbibinata na ang aking pinakamamahal na apo ehe." Sabi ni Lola na may ngiti sa labi. Ngiting success ang peg ah.

Napahawak na lang ako sa batok ko dahil I'm ashamed. Pa'no ba kasi, bine baby ako ni Lola eh I'm already grown up naman. Hays kaloka.

"Lola." Inis na reply ako at tinigil ang pag guitar pati pag singing.

Tumabi sa'kin si Lola and lay her head into my arms. Naks. Feeling young si Lola hehe.

"La, if magkakaroon man ako ng girlfriend, syempre ikaw ang unang makakaalam nun at tsaka hindi naman porket binata na 'tong napakagwapo niyong apo, magnonobyo na. In God's perfect timing, she'll come. Tsaka ba't ko naman papalitan ang first woman of my life ko aber?"

Salaysay ko and caresses her long and dark hair nito.

"Alam ko naman iyon. Ang sa'kin lang, basta mamahalin ka niya kagaya ng pagmamahal ko sa'yo, mabuti na iyon. Basta lagi mong tandaan na mahal na mahal ka ni Lola. Ang gwapo talaga ng apo ko oh! Manang-mana sa'kin ehe."

Lola replied so I just smile and get my guitar and play it again. Lola sang with me and start humming.

"I need somebody who can love me at my worst. No I'm not perfect but I hope you see my worth. It's only you nobody new I put you first. And for you girl I swear I'll do the worst."

★★★★★

By the way, ako pala si Jerome Hermosa, A.K.A Romeo ni Juliet pero still finding my Juliet chariz. 19 years of age, first year college and currently taking up the Bachelor of Arts in English Language Studies, an English Professor soon. Isang guitarist. Gwapo, gentleman, religious, smart, humble, good-looking, kindhearted and syempre Lola's boy. Currently studying at Mindanao State University.

Yes, tama narinig niyo. Lola's boy ni Lola. I grew up in her arms. Like she was my mother, my biological mother. And you know what? I didn't even knew who are my parents, my biological parents. Ang unfair noh? Hindi ko man lang sila nasilayan at nakasama. I don't even knew nor seen their faces. All I ever knew was their names that Lola has told me about.

But despite of it, I didn't have the opportunity to find them, to look for them and to ask them why did they abandoned me, abandoned us ni Lola. For what? Pinanganak lang ako as of what? Bunga ng kasalanan nilang dalawa? Hays. Why should I stress myself about that nonsense stuffs. I don't need them anymore.

Lola told a story about my parents but not that exact details I wanted pa. It isn't enough yet but I don't care anymore. I'm happy living with my Grandma and that's more than enough. If they hated me due to their mistakes they've done, then let them be. Who cares?

But even though, I just missed having parents at my side. Yes, having Grandma is nice too but there's still one thing that'll fill me, to knew myself deeper and that's to have parents. Supporting and cheering for you all the way to achieve your success.

Bakit ko nga ba 'to sinasabi? To tell everyone that having a broken family isn't that easy. Broken ba? Or ulila? Both total same naman sila. Not all child like me grew up in a complete family. I'm still craving for a family. A mother and a father and siblings. I always told myself to not be jealous sa mga may family eh kasi mas masasaktan ako.

Lola's boy kaya napaka responsible. I can stand on my own feet, I can handle myself, dress myself and support myself and of course, to take good care of my Lola and to pay back everything starting from her sacrifices to me. I want to be a successful person someday in the future for my Lola.

Pinalaki niya ako na may takot sa Diyos, marespeto sa mga nakakatanda lalo na sa girls. Yes. I highly respected girls just like how I respect my Lola. Good thing na rin siguro na may apo siyang katulad ko haha. Napaka lucky kong tao na lumaki ako sa Lola ko.

There's still many stuck questions bothering on my mind about myself, where I came from, who are my parents, my relatives, my siblings, and of course, who and what I am in this world. It's still clueless and having that kind of stuff is definitely mind-blowing.

My Lola isn't my biological grandma. She's just a granny but when I came to her life, everything in her was changed. I was just her adopted grandson. But never siya naging problem, naging balakid kasi in the first place, she love and care for me just like her real grandson.

We live in this world with judgements surrounded us but it didn't hinder me to continue and achieve my dreams. Not just for myself but especially for my Lola. I can't live without her. She's my life and my everything. I'll do everything for the sake of her.

I love music. Hindi sa pagmamayabang but I'm definitely a good singer. A guitarist in our band. And yes, I love composing song lyrics. Gusto ko kumanta, I wanna be in a concert someday, in my own concert. People shouting and cheering for me. Making autographs and photoshoots. Making posters, merchandise, tarpaulins with my face on it. Giving free tickets and albums to release. Suggesting me to sing songs for my fans. I wanna be popular singer someday.

Gusto ko maki jamming and ma meet someday ang mga famous bands both nationwide and international. Isa na dun ang 'BTS'. Ang Korean Pop Idol na sikat ngayon lalo na sa Philippines. They're my biases since birth. I want to sing along with them. Oppa tayo dito mga beh! I want to rock and roll with them. To shine like a star with them.

Music is my therapy, my medicine to my sadness ill. Siguro pinaglihi ako dito kaya I can't live without it. Everywhere I go, music is my human diary. Music calms me and wounds my stress, depression and anxiety. It makes me relax. I considered music as my identical twin, my shadow wherever I go and my childhood and since birth very best friend. Musicophile kumbaga, a person who truly loves music. Ako na 'yon.

Siguro nga life without music for me is useless and meaningless. Where music gives color to my darkness world. It became my light to my pathway in fighting my own battles in life. A person who loves music is just like having no problems in life. But oppositely, they're not. Yung taong idinadaan lang ang lahat ng challenges and trials in life sa music.

Now you all knew me. It's not yet over. Nagsisimula pa lang ang lahat. Papunta na us sa exciting part of my story. Chariz lang. Anyway, Jerome at your service. Your guitarist featuring Lola's boy. I have lot of chikas to talk about but for now, magpa practice na muna ako nang sa ganun ay ma master ko na ang kantang 'At My Worst' na one of Lola's favorite song during her days. Kinda interesting and difficult but I enjoyed naman and ready to sing it to y'all someday so stay tuned.

PS: SPECIAL CHAPTER 1 IS WAVING! STAY TUNED PEPS!