Blade Kisses

Chapter 1

Evelyn ^^^
Quote: Dont fall for someone tricks when all you get is hurt and played instead of falling for the tricks get payback.
(I write my own quotes so please don't take)
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I look at the newly scars on my wrist that I did last night. Over my old ones. After a while of thinking and looking I get up and go grab some black skinny jeans with a baggy sweatshirt. I put my hair up in a messy bun. Brush my teeth. I get my bag and walk downstairs. I don't see my mom like always probably in her room sleeping from drinking last night like always. I grab my skate board and and skate off to school.
I get to school and get off my board and walk into the school. Like always no one notices me but I like it. I like how no one talks or look at me. I never told anyone what happened in the past. And it's not going to happen. I get to my locker grab my books and put my board in my locker. I heard the bell signaling that it's first hour. I walk slowly getting pushed. I run into someone and fell on top of them. I didn't look at the face instead I scrambled up got my books. "I'm sorry." I say as I look up. I look up and see Drew Logan. Shit in trouble. "Watch where your going next time got it." He says In a rude voice. "Y-y-yes." I say in a stuttering voice. I see him look down at my wrist I follow where his eyes are looking and I see he's looking at my cuts. Shit I pull my sleeve down and walk away to first hour. Fuck fuck fuck fuck he saw damn it no one knows except the bad boy now fuck.

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The 3 classes pass by like that and now it's lunch. As usually I don't eat lunch. I see drew walking with his 4 friends. Ryder, Oliver, Jordan and Dominic. All the girls swooning playing with their hair pushing there chest up and moving trying to get them to notice. I roll my eyes and just keep walking wanting to get out side and sit by a tree. I walk out of the doors and go sit down by a tree and think about how messed up my life got. They say "life gets better" but why isn't it getting better all its getting is worse. I can't trust anyone. I keep these feeling bottled up. I stay up all night not wanted to go sleep. If I do the nightmares come back. But then my demons come out and I do it again. I cut over and over thinking what a disgrace I became. And now Drew fucking Logan knows.
I see Drew with his friends laughing at something. Their probably going to ditch. I ignore them looking at the sky wishing about something that's not going to happen. I can't stay here anymore. I can't stay at this school. I never ditched in my life but I need to leave. I get up grab my bag and walk inside and go to my locker and grab my board and I run outside and skate off. I turn around and I don't see Drew and his friends anymore. I turn around and skate to my house. When I got to my house I rain inside dropping everything when I got to my room and went to the bathroom and grabbed my razor. One cut for being a disgrace. Second cut for my dad leaving. Third cut for everything I lost. Fourth cut my past. Fifth cut for Drew knowing. I get up and put my razor back washing up and put a bandage on. I felt relief feel my body up. Except I just cry and cry.
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A/N FIRST CHAPTER. I KNOW IT HAD A SHITTY ENDING BUT OH WELL. BUT MEXT CHAPTER DREW AND EVELYN WILL TALK BUT YOU HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE I WILL TRY TO WRITE A CHAPTER TOMORROW BUT I DONT KNOW MY FRIEND IS COMING OVER SO I MIGHT BE BUSY.

Anyways If you guys self harm or anything don't do it. All of you guys are amazing talented wonderful beautiful/handsome. Even if I don't know you. But anyone you guys have so much to live for don't let anyone tell you different you can live with someone's Opinion haunting you mind. Because that's showing them that they could do it over and over. But show them stand up to them. If your having a bad day with parents I like to skateboard and think. Because sometimes being alone can help. Be strong I'm always here for you guys.