Heaven is a bedroom (noco fanfic)

Stars

Noahs P.O.V:

I was ready to head of to stars to meet Cody, hed clearly changed over the summer and I really wanted nothing to do with him anymore. Obvisouly my feelings didnt just dissapear but i knew it was pointless carrying on falling for him. Nothing he could tell me could really fix this. Could it?

I walked out my house and the cold breeze hit me more than it should have, i couldnt cry over a boy i never really had a chance with right? He literally acts like a 9 year old how do i even like him?? Anyways i decided music was the best way to distract me. I made new playlist for every situation. I quite literally had one called music to stop crying over boys. Fitting but so fucking gay, maybe cody was right i am a fag. I put it on and Morrisey started blasting through my ears. Trent never stopped talking about the smiths to the point i admitted defeat and added the smiths to all my playlists, and i dont even talk to trent thats how much he talks about the smiths. This playlist was only about 3 hours long and only really had radiohead mitski the smiths and tv girl on it. i let the music distract me from my problems until stars came into view. Suddenly i had this gut wrenching feeling, i felt so sick. I took my earphones off and tucked them back into my pocket. This was gonna be rough. I walked in and he was already sat down. i almost turned around and walked out right before he yelled my name.

"Noah please dont go you need to hear me out,"

I awkawardly shuffled to my seat.

"Am i just here to be harrased or do you actually have something to say?"

"Okay i know i made myself look bad but i have an explation,"

"explain then..?"

"Ok so i never meant to call you a fag as an insult im kinda figuring out who i am right now and i think i might also like guys.. idk if im fully gay or if im bi or whatever i really dont know and im really really confused i dont know what to do can you maybe help i know im not in a postion to be asking you for anything but im really really messed up at the moment im literally a mess,"

"Shit, thats alot to just like load onto me"

"oh sorry.." he did that stupid little kid frown.

"No its okay, i can try help you but im gonna need you to explain a bit more,"

Codys P.O.V:

Why would i even ask him for help how was i meant to explain that he was the boy that made me confused about all this. He was staring at me with his big brown eyes. He looked pretty dumbfounded which was unusal but i guess i did just dump all my problems on him.

"Well cody i dont really know what you want me to do about this but i guess i could try?"

"Ok well theres a boy that ive known for a while but recently its felt more than us just being friends.. I dont really know how to explain it but its the first time ive really felt this way. The whole thing with Gwen kind of just felt like i liked her just to like a girl because i didnt really like anyone but with this one boy it feels diffrent,"

"Wow well i guess i can say i kind of understand and im kind of going through something similar? obvisouly i come to terms with the fact im gay ages ago but i can relate to the whole liking girls because you felt diffrent and finally realising why you felt diffrent stuff,So whos this boy thats made u realise all this?"

Shit!! What was i meant to tell him now. I couldnt tell him it was him could I? No way.

"As if i would tell you that i only admitted this to you so you wouldnt think i was a dick,"

"the fact your gay doesnt make you not a dick hunny"

"woww the pet names too, vicious."

"Anyways cody i have to go so you can figure your own shit out while i sit in my room and read cause i live the most interesting life out of anyone in canada,"

"Reading? I always thought you were more of a skydiving off buildings kinda guy." cody was giggling like a toddler

"suprised izzy hasnt roped me into doing that at this point, anyways i really do have to go,"

"Bye,Noah"

Noah got up and left Stars, I pondered if i would ever confess. I decided there was no point of sticking around so i got up and went home.