Started with "I Do"

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"We continued spending time like that on the rooftop until his friends discovered us one day. His whole demeanor changed once his friend caught us and they started to question him about all sorts of things. I felt uncomfortable so I escaped from there. But as I was about to descend down the stairs I heard him say 'He is just clinging to me because he likes me. It's not that I'm secretly spending time with him so, stop trying to fry my brain.'"

"I heard one of them say 'What the fuck! so the guy that Hanni likes fucking likes guys. If she knew that the person she liked was gay then maybe she would accept me. AHAHAH.' I couldn't bear to listen anymore so I just escaped from there and from then onwards I stopped going to the rooftop. Although I don't mind coming out, I still wanted to come out on my own timeline when I wanted to not because someone wanted to avoid being questioned to."

"Just like that senior year started. At the beginning of my senior year in high school, rumors started circulating about me being gay and that I had harassed a guy. I didn't know about the rumors until later when the situation started going out of hand. I was getting alienated by people who I thought were my friends. They would snicker behind my back whenever I passed by them."

"I didn't really care about it because I had Chan, Hyunjin and Changbin  which was enough for me. However, slowly, things started to get out of hand. They would leave notes like 'Shitty gay' 'Dirty Homosexual' 'Die you fag' and blah blah in my lockers and even write it out in my desk. They would throw papers at me during my cleaning duty and some daring one would even trip me down the hallways whenever I was walking by."

"Even Chan and all were starting to get implicated by this so I distanced myself away from them. That was when the bullying started to get really bad. They would push me down, shove me against the lockers, lock me at the storage room and all that shit. You know back then I hate all of them. Those guys who used to laugh around me, complimented me and tried to get closer to me were the same ones who were doing all those things to me. The guys I helped when they were getting bullied or alienated looked at me either with disgust or just avoided me. "

 Minho paused for a really long time as if he was choked with emotions before continuing "I was totally all alone and started to resent everyone around me. So, I started to skip schools. Back then I didn't know that all these rumors were being spread and were made worse by the guy I liked and his group of friends all because a girl rejected one of them because the one she liked was me. Maybe, I knew but I just didn't want to accept it because no matter what once he and I were really close friends who cared for each other."

"Even with all these happening to me I never once showed an ounce of my feelings to those bastards. But occasionally when it was all too much I would cry in the bathroom to vent out all my feelings.  One time, when I was crying in one of the stall those guys came in probably wanting to smoke. I didn't like the smell of the smoke so I wanted to get out of there. When they saw me one of the guy sneered and said 'Look who it is? If it isn't the most popular guy of our school at the moment.'"

"Not wanting to see those conceited smile I tried to get out of there when, the other guy yanked me back and said 'Where are you going? Chat with us a bit. What are you in a hurry for?' Another guy sneered while saying 'Don't you like guys? Come on tell us who among us is more your type. Don't be shy that person might even play with you if you're honest.'"

Jisung could hear Minho's voice tremble at this point so he held his hand while Minho resumed "I tried to set myself free from them but with all of them together ganging up on me I couldn't. The guy who was rejected by the girl called Hanni started to touch me while my hands were being pressed down by another guy at the wall while saying 'Will he get hard if we touch him?' The guy holding down my hand laughed and replied 'Bet he will. He likes guys after all. Why don't you try it' as he tried to unbutton my shirt. At that moment I was so scared that I was literally begging them to stop it."