Collection 2

Chapter 42

　When I heard others say that he just had a pussy for nothing and that he didn't even have a pussy, and that the male Omega could only use his asshole as a pussy, I had obviously heard a lot of swear words in the countryside before, but I still got so angry that I turned back into a shrew. Even though I myself I also feel that if I can't have a baby, I'm just growing something in vain.

　　It's really ridiculous. I've destroyed so many families and hurt so many mothers, but I want to be a mother myself. I always feel strangely soft-hearted when I'm looked at by that kid.

　　The despair I felt when I found out that the child was an Omega was actually far less profound than the joy of holding that little meatball. It was ugly and ugly, but when I thought that it came from my own belly and was so well-behaved, I was so excited that I let him eat my milk and my blood.

　　Maybe it's because I did too many dirty things and gave birth to him with such a person. My milk and blood are dirty, so I will repay these things to the child. It's obvious that he is a good boy, it's obvious that everything has nothing to do with him, it's obvious that he doesn't know anything.

　　I suddenly understood what my mother was thinking.

　　My mother lived like that. Although she never smiled much, she lived well all the time, because the days when we, mother and daughter, depended on each other were actually very happy. For me, my mother accepted the gift and opened Pandora's box. Although she smiled after that, she was never happy again. You will only be happy when you see me.

　　How can I not have a burden? I will be afraid after doing bad things. When I hear a sound in the middle of the night, I will suspect that ghosts are knocking on the door. It will be imprinted in my heart for the rest of my life, and I will live with shackles.

　　This is normal and deserved.

　　Rather, that cowardly woman was holding on because of me. She couldn't bear that her child lost a good life because of her mistake, was always hungry and cold, and eventually turned into a bitter and mean person. In fact, I did it voluntarily, but precisely because of this, it was even more difficult for her to accept it.

　　When my mother committed suicide, I was able to become independent and became docile and well-behaved on the surface.

　　The child's efforts may also be for me.

　　Maybe I shouldn't keep walking like this. I should take this kid back to the country. In fact, neither I nor this child are interested in a life of wealth and wealth, and I have no target for revenge, but I have become accustomed to this kind of life, and I have developed the habit of pleasing Alpha. Even if I go back, can I really adapt?

　　...Maybe it can be done with this child by my side.

　　But although the child is not squeamish, his body is very squeamish. After all, he needs money to support him. Otherwise, sooner or later, he will become ill and have to eat money to survive. It's impossible for me to survive on my own.

　　In fact, I also tried hard to please Alpha, but I am getting old and becoming less and less valuable, leaving only the Lin family with the best hope.

　　The result is that we are three Omegas. I rob my mother, my mother robs me, I rob the child, and the child robs me, until one of us is overwhelmed and dies.

　　Now it was my turn to struggle in the mud until I died.

　　That's all, that's all.

　　This child is destined not to be as discerning as me, and is destined to be abandoned by the Lin family in the end, or to be handed over to some low-life toad. Maybe she would be like that aunt, who although she had a very unfortunate life, was still stupid enough to freeze to death and starve to death in the end, or maybe she would give in like me.