Book girl // lesbian story (intersex x girl)

17.

Brianna's POV

"Because I know you'd make my life a fucking mess"

Those words stabbed me in the heart.

I've been thinking about what she said all night. I couldn't sleep and I even cried a little.

———(flashback)

"Why?" I asked with so much hurt clear on my voice.

Harper looked away from my eyes and sighed, shaking her head "I can't explain it"

I decided not to dig too much into it mostly because I'm on the edge of crying and i don't want to cry in front of her.

"Can we go back to studying now?" She asked looking into my eyes and I saw her eyes fill with guilt when she saw how sad I looked "yeah sure"

I looked away from her and gave her short responses.

I know it came out as pathetic because she probably thinks I'm mad that she rejected but I am not that type of person.

I just don't want to talk a lot because I can feel this weight on my chest, pressing down on it and basically suffocating me.

I don't want to talk to anyone, not just Harper.

Sure, I am so upset and sad that she doesn't want me and has a bad image of me in her head but I'm not going to bash her and get mad at her for not wanting me. It's okay.

Still hurts so much though.

———(end of flashback)

"Hey" I looked up and saw Harper smiling at me as she sat down in front of me "hi" I cannot stop myself from smiling whenever I'm in her presence, especially when she's being nice.

"You ready?" She asked me and I nodded my head "yeah" even though I really am not ready for the exam.

All I can think about is you, Harper.

The teacher walked in and waited for the bell to ring to give us permission to start our exam.

The moment I saw the first question, I knew how much I'm going to fuck up.

I started biting my nails anxiously as my leg bounced up and down. I looked around at everyone to see all of them writing down and none of them were stuck on anything.

I feel so stupid right now.

Harper is going to be so disappointed in me.

I tried to look at Harper's paper or anyone's paper honestly "keep your eyes on your paper, Brianna" the teacher said sternly making me sit back and look down at the empty paper in front of me.

A person raised their hand and called over the teacher so Harper took this opportunity and turned to peak at my paper.

She looked over at the teacher and tried to whisper the answers to me but eventually she lifted her paper up to show me.

I started writing down everything I could "Brianna, Harper!" We both looked towards the teacher who looked so angry.

"Out of the classroom, now" he demanded and we both stood up, making our way out of the classroom as he followed behind you.

"I expected so much better than you Harper. Go to the principal's office and wait for me there" he said to the both of us.

Harper sighed and closed her eyes, rubbing the side of her head "I'm so sorry, Harper" I said as we walked to the principal's office "it's okay"

We sat in the principal's office in front of his desk and waited for both the teacher and the principal to show up. The secretary told us to wait here.

"I really am sorry-" Harper cut me off "can you just stop apologizing? I willingly helped you. You didn't do this to me, I did it to myself" she said with an angry stern tone.

I looked down and nodded "okay" I mumbled, knowing that the last thing she wants to hear right now is me talking.

The principal walked in alongside Mr.Allan who stood beside us with his arms crossed "I am so extremely disappointed in you, Harper. You could've graduated with the perfect grades in all of your four years of high school but you did what she wanted?"

Okay why am I the villain?

"She didn't ask me to do it, I did it myself" Harper said standing up for me which made me smile a little "you don't have to defend her, Harper" the principal said leaning his elbows on his desk.

As if I'm not right here.

"Exactly, I don't have to defend her so I'm not. It's the truth that she didn't ask me for help, I just helped her because I wanted to"

"I saw Brianna trying to look at other students' exam" Mr.Allan said making me sit back and looked down embarrassed "and? Can you imagine the amount of stress she's feeling when she has an exam? She studied so hard and I made sure that she did"

"Harper you can retake the exam.." the principal said, now looking at me too. I just smiled at what he said "..but you Brianna, you're getting an F"

That smile quickly died when I heard what he said.

"But sir, I studied really hard for it" I said sitting on the edge of my seat "you still cheated. You have been in my office many times for different reasons and your grades aren't the best so why do you care?"

Okay wow.

"Shouldn't you be happy that she cares? She's putting real dedication and effort into becoming a better student this year but you come here and destroy thatin a matter of seconds because you think she shouldn't care about her grades"

"All what came out of your mouth was very poorly said sir. Not only did it show how you don't motivate your students but also how you favorite others. You either let us retake the exam together or fail us together. The choice is yours"

Dripping, screaming, shaking.

The principal sighed and rubbed the side of his forehead as he looked at Mr.Allan "you can both retake the exam but you get one try, tomorrow and that's it"

"Thank you, sir"