Toxic

"College"

It's already 9 o'clock and school starts at 10, I have a big problem. I think I can make it when I just skip breakfast. I look at my phone and read thru the schedule one last time.

I'm pretty nervous and I don't really know what to expect.
My whole life I was looking forward to this moment, finally being independent and choosing my own life. Finally my own place and doing what I love the most: learning and reading. There is nothing better then reading a book by the fireplace. I'm gonna miss that place at my parents house when I'm gone, but I'm also really excited to decorate my new place.

It's getting really late now so I pack my bag and hop on my bike. It's only a few minutes to the station and only a few minutes to my college with the metro. Tomorrow is move in day my parents are gonna help me take al my stuff to my new dorm. Today the lessons already start, I have psychology as my main. It's my dream to become a psychologist and have my own business one day. But I have a few more years of learning before my dreams will hopefully come true.

"Shit" i yelled a bit to hard. I forgot my pencil case, now I will probably need to ask my classmates for a pen.
I don't know if you already expected it but I'm not really the most social person u ever saw. I actually like being alone on myself and I don't need anyone else with that.

Finally I arrived at my first class. "Attention class, I'm mister Vanderbilt and I will be teaching u this year. Before we start I would like to learn you're names. Starting with u there!" He said pointing at a boy who is sitting a few seats next to me. "I'm Evan sir" the boy spoke. I waited in silence till Vanderbilt was standing right in front me. "And you young lady with the black hair? What is you're name?" He said while looking me in the eyes. I felt like everyone was looking at me. " I'm June sir"I said in the most awkward voice ever. He nodded his head and got to a girl next to me. "I'm Megan sir"she said confidently.

When everyone told his or her name the lesson started. I packed my stuff and remembered I still needed to ask for a pen. I looked at Megan and whispered: "Hey do u maybe have a pen I can borrow? I forgot mine" She smiled and nodded while getting a pink pen out of her pencil case which was also pink. I thanked her and got started on my notes. I really enjoyed the lesson and it was pretty interesting. After the lesson ended I gave Megan her pen."Thank you! Hey would u maybe wanna sit with me at lunch?" She asked.I was really surprised. No one has ever asked me something like that. Normally I would like to sit alone and study a bit but she looked like she really wanted me to so I answered: "yes I would love that!".

I hung out with Megan all day and I really got to know her. She lives on campus and it's also her first year. Her favorite color is pink and she has a cat named cupcake at home with her mom. Her dad died two years ago from cancer. She talked about it pretty comfortable so that would probably mean that she is doing a lot better now. Me and Megan are complete opposite's, she talks a lot and loves people and bright colors and dressing up, I never talk and I only wear big sweaters and baggy jeans I hate people and I don't like bright colors. Like I said we are complete opposite's but I think we can fill in each other pretty well. And it's always nice to have a friend to work with or hang out with.

After school I got back home and got some hot tea. I put on my cosy pyjama's and got my laptop. I planned on doing some homework and learn a bit about the lessons we got today. I was just getting started when my phone lights up. A message from Megan. I put my laptop away and I clicked on Snapchat. "JUNE! YOU HAVE TO BE READY IN 10 I WILL PICK U UP!" I was gazing at the words in caps lock. Wait does she mean like right now? I  rubbed my eyes twice to make sure I was not dreaming. Damn we're is she taking me? Do I wanna go? Don't we have school tomorrow? The questions were popping up in my head. *ping* one new message from Megan. "Don't ask questions! Just do!" I stand up and walked to my closet. What should I wear? The only thing I could find was a old black dress that comes right above my knees. It's perfect. I quickly changed and stared at myself in the mirror. My long black hair was laying over my shoulders and my green eyes where staring right into my soul. I never wear make up but should I for just this night? I stole some lipstick and a bit blush and eyeshadow from my mom her bag. I tried putting it on but I don't know if I like it. Quickly I packed a small bag with my
Phone and some money.

And now the hard part. How the hell am I going to sneak out? Shit I didn't think about that. I grabbed some pillows from my chair and stuffed them under my blanket. This would be okay for now. I open my window and the fresh evening smell slipped into my nose. I took a deep breath and stepped a foot outside my window. Luckily my window is on the first floor so I wouldn't have to worry about anything that contains climbing cause I'm not really a sporty type. When my whole body was outside I open Snapchat and called Megan.

Megan: hey girl!! Are u ready?
June: I guess so, where are we going?
Megan: uhm where do u think we're going?
June: how I'm I supposed to know?
Megan: we are going to our first ever college party!
June: wait what?

I was to late cause Megan already hung up and a minute later she drives her car onto my front porch, I signed her she had to be quiet but she didn't really understood they assignment.
Luckily my parents didn't wake up. In the car
Megan excitedly welcomed me and gave me a small hug. The music in her car was really loud and when she hit gas I had to hold on my seat really tight.

I'm about to enter my first party and I'm nervous asf.