JenLisa one shot story's

oh say it ain't so

Summary:

lisa realizes there is more to her feelings for jennie kim than she thinks, and finds herself impatient, wanting to explore it all.

she's not sure when it started really. all she knew was that it went from playful shoving after a confession on live TV with tinted cheeks and shy glances to having her whole perspective shift after seeing and noticing things she'd never paid attention to before, having the most life altering realisation that what seemed like games and publicity and jokes were not entirely just that..

not jokes at all.

it was real. like real real. she had swept herself up into the wild hurricane that is jennie.. who she is head over heels for. she has fallen for the most unavailable person in her life, the most detached person in the whole group - the one who catches her staring during their breaktimes and briskly turns away, not having the chance to notice the way her face falls -  the one person who's opinion of her is "young and very childish". yeah that one, she'd gone ahead and accidentally handed her heart to her.

she'd given jennie the power to eliminate her within seconds without even knowing it.

she was inexplicably the most stupid person in the entire world, not even just that but also very foolish, she wondered of ways on how to undo the mistake she'd made. it wasn't very long lasting from what she'd heard, it would stay there, yes, but it would also go away eventually right? just like her short time crush on benedict cumberbatch, which by the way only even arose because of his acting in sherlock holmes, it really seemed to dissipate quite quickly after that (which she was thankful for, imagine her crushing on a white man for christs sake.)

this was the state her mind has been the past weeks, thinking of ways to prevent her from falling even deeper to the pits of hell that were jennie's dimples - which she was a little regretful about because they were lovely dimples - and maintaining a calm, uncaring and cool demeanour around said owner of lovely dimples. this was working quite well on monday morning before the choreographer strictly scolded her for daydreaming (which she promises she really wasn't.. jennie had just rounded the corner of their practice room and lisa had lost her concentration momentarily, thats all) proceeded to tell her to get rid of this baggage that she was carrying around on her thin sturdy shoulders, focus and get to work.

it was very hard to get her mind off of her, what with jennie being everywhere. jennie's song, jennie's posters stuck in every wall of the hallways, her MV playing throughout the day to celebrate her, jennie name being spoken aloud literally every corner she turned. it was impossible. its like fate wanted to mess with her even further.

when the members brought her up after a few hours of of lazing around in their dorms, she had got up and left without looking back to notice their confused glances.

she was quite actually close to losing her mind, she couldn't deal with this. why did she have to stare at jennie a little too intensely during that movie night and realise she was put on this earth to admire, support and be deeply in love with her?

shortly after that though she had come to terms with it, it had taken a bit of time to mull it over - also a tub of ice cream whilst she sat on the bath, scrolling through astrology websites and repeatedly pressing on the aries+capricorn links to see if it would go horribly wrong - but in the end the solution had showed itself, she had to explore this to the best of her ability. it was honestly still very much a shock to her, her brain couldn't process it still, but it was the only thing to make sense. although there was the second half of her brain that strongly objected to it, the one that scoffed at the fact that she had feelings for jennie. it laughed at her. her have a crush on.. jennie kim? it was an absolute joke. she would never look at her that way. in her mind, lisa was as immature as they come, playful and never once serious. she would never look at her beyond that, period.