driving me crazy || tom kaulitz

7, guilt

toms pov:

i really messed up and i regret it so much, i can feel the guilt building up by the second. i didn't really mean what i said, i promise!
but now she won't forgive me, ever. feeling defeated, i walked away from her cabin and back to mine. as i got in i sighed loudly. i don't know why, but i felt my eyes water?
i changed into my pajamas and went to bed since i had nothing else to do.

2:03am

i felt someone shake me and i woke up with a groan. „what?" i said in a raspy voice.
„y/n overheard our conversation, that's why she's avoiding you!" bill whispered. „i know genius, after you guys left i texted her and she told me everything" i stuffed my face into my pillow. „damn, you really shouldn't have said that." he walked to his bed. „i don't think she'll forgive you, like at all" he added. „you think i didn't figure that out?" i got annoyed. sometimes he's so extra, it's annoying.

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y/ns pov:

i woke up really early for some reason. it was 5:24 and breakfast starts at 7:20. i got out of bed and took a shower since i didn't get a chance to shower last night. i was still thinking about how toms voice was broken, like he really meant the apology, but i snapped out of my thoughts since he broke my heart. i never want to see his face ever again.

6:30

i was done showering and i was also done picking out my clothes and done with my makeup. the girls finally decided to wake up and they also got ready while i watched some basketball game on the tv.

twenty minutes later, i was still watching when angelina came and sat next to me. „hey n/n, are you okay? what happened last night?" she asked. „nothing really, he texted me asking what he did wrong and i told him everything. he then came in front of the door and started knocking and apologizing." i said, my eyes stuck on the tv. „damn, are you gonna forgive him?" she asked and i shrugged. „don't know, i don't feel like forgiving him anytime soon."

she sighed and walked away.

7:12

everyone was done so we went outside, waiting for the boys. a minute later they show up. i quickly glance at tom and he looked like he'd been crying? or was it just exhaustion?
i greet all of them except for tom, of course. we made it to the dining hall and ate. tom only got a toast and apple juice, was he starving himself or what?

taylor asked if he wanted her pudding but he declined.

TIME SKIP

we were still in school, we were gonna have music which was our 5th lesson but our music teacher was sick and our sub teacher didn't know anything about music so he let us go to the backyard of the school. i ran away from everyone since i wanted to be alone but somehow bill found me. „y/n! why did you run away? and why are you alone?" he sat next to me. „i just.... i don't know, i wanted some alone time i guess." i chuckled. „oh then, i'm sorry i'll lea-„ he didn't finish since i interrupted him. „no! stay, i don't really wanna be alone." i took his hand.
he smiled at me and sat back down. „thanks, i was hoping that you'd let me stay" his smile widened and i smiled back. „hey, i'm really sorry you had to hear that conversation, i know he can be a jerk and all but hes always like that, you deserve better you know?" he talked to me in a sweet, soft tone. i found myself blushing for some reason. „thanks bill, you're really nice and sweet, unlike your brother." he chuckled and suddenly, he kissed me?

i froze for a second but then kissed him back. i then pulled away. i was about to say something when i saw tom, watching us. his eyes widened as he saw what just happened. before i could also explain, he ran off. i sighed. „i-i'm sorry y/n.." „no no, it's fine bill, i didn't mind the kiss i just..." i sighed.

„you like tom, don't you?" he said. that caught me off guard. „what?"
„you like him." „no.. no i don't" i chuckled. „y/n, you do." he slightly smiled.
i sighed again. „i don't know, i do like him but i can't like him anymore because of what he did. he even said he has his eyes on some other girl."
„y/n, you're lost. you're heartbroken but still in love and don't know what to do. you're trying to hate him but you can't, just let it all out." he approached me and gave me a hug. he also kissed me on the cheek and i blushed a bit. „damn i might just fall in love with you right now" i chuckled and he also blushed and laughed.  „but thank you, and alright, i will." i smiled at him. „go! go find him before it's too late!" he pushed me. „alright! i'll tell you everything that happened!" i said and he nodded. i then ran off to where most of the group was. „hey guys... have you guys seen tom?" they turned to me. angelina looked kind of sad and angry. she then marched up towards me and pulled me to the side. „what the heck y/n, i thought we were friends!" tears were slowly dripping down to her cheeks.

„what do you mean? we are friends?" „you knew i liked bill an you kissed him?!" she shouted a bit. that pig told the whole group about that kiss. „look, angie, you misunderstood it."
„then what is it y/n? come on, tell me!" she shouted. „look, he was comforting me because of what happened with tom and then we accidentally kissed and tom saw it. it was all just an accident ang." i placed my hands on her shoulders. her face softened and she hugged me. „i-i.. i'm sorry.. i was just heartbroken because you're my friend and i really didn't think you'd do that on purpose."

„it's fine, don't worry. but do you know which way tom went?".     „yeah, he went to the bathroom."  i nodded and left to go to the bathroom. i ran towards the nearest bathroom and walked into the boys restrooms. i saw tom, in front of the mirror, kind of tearing up. he looked up at me and jumped. „y-y/n, what are you doing here? this is the boys restroom." he wiped his tears away.
„i know Einstein, i came here to talk to you."

„i thought you wouldn't forgive me..?" he said. „well... i think i..." i approached him. „..changed my mind. i-it's difficult okay?" he raised his eyebrow. „really? then explain." he crossed his arms.

„i-i like you."
his eyes widened. „w-wait what?"
„but you kissed bill?" „i know! we just kissed randomly, he was comforting me because of the thing with you and then we just accidentally kissed." his gaze softened. „oh, alright. and.. all the things i said in front of the locker room was a lie, i actually also really like you i just didn't want them to know because they would then talk about it 24/7. everything i said was a lie." he said.

i then understood everything. i was so dumb for not letting him explain. „i-i'm so sorry for not letting you come clean and i.. i really like you too tom. i forgive you." i looked him in the eyes and he suddenly pulled me into a stall and smashed his lips against mine. i slightly groaned since i got pinned aggressively on the wall. i was kissing him back as my hands were around his neck. his hands were caressing my back as the kiss softened and wasn't aggressive anymore.

this continued for like ten minutes before we heard someone enter the restroom. tom placed his hand over my mouth and we stayed close to each other. the person left and tom removed his hand. „we should better get going before everyone starts wondering where we are" i said and he chuckled with a nod. we walked back in the backyard and everyone was already waiting for us. „well well, where have you two been?" asked the sub as he crossed his hands. „we went to uh.. look for something! i forgot something in the bathroom so we went to look for it." i blurred out. the teacher nodded and told us to get in line. our group stared at us and we gave them a ‚what' look. „what really happened in the bathroom?" asked gustav. me and tom looked at each other and then back at them.

„we'll tell you later" we both said and they sighed.

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A/N: hallo pookies i'm sorry for not posting much😕😕😕