Betrayed Hearts

They were eventually given their food and they started to eat in silence. Not a single word was spoken, not by Tomioka, or Sanemi.

In the end of their meal, the first words were finally spoken but Tomioka as he threw his personal handkerchief at his face.

Tomioka:Once a messy eater always a messy eater, clean your face stupid.

Sanemi grabbed it and looked down at it, he knew Giyuu had one but he never saw it before. I was white and had a small bird embedded into the corner of it. Tomioka got up and went to pay, Sanemi didn't want to use it, since he knew Giyuu had it for a long time. So he used a napkin that the restaurant leaves at the table. He folded the handkerchief in a square and gently placed it in his pocket. He didn't want to get it dirty, or he didn't want to dirty it with his own filth.

They ended up leaving and they were in the car again, this time it was only Sanemi stealing glances at Tomioka. 

They made it the next location and Tomioka once again sent Sanemi inside to do his dirty work for him. Tomioka sat on the hood of his car again.

All for a damn brat?

He left me for a damn brat, he could have stayed and taken care of the kid as well. Or he could have at least stayed with me? That was all I wanted after he left, just for him to come back and say just kidding and we would have spent all our time together.

What am I doing? Why am I punishing myself because of him? He ruined me.

FLASHBACK:

Muzan: Giyuu, you were the last person he was with tell me, why did he leave?

Giyuu: I don't know, he left without telling me anything.

Muzan:Such a shame now we have to kill him.

Giyuu:Sir, what if we let him go?

Muzan:Oh Giyuu, why would I do that? He left his family, he needs to be offed.

Giyuu: Please sir, I will do anything, just don't kill him.

Muzan:Oh....your involve with him. That is why you are against me killing him. What will you give  me in exchange for his life?

Giyuu:Anything and everything I have to give.

Muzan:Does that include your body?

Giyuu:W-What?

Muzan:I have always been fond with your body, you are very scrawny but so strong at the same time. I want to see what else your body can handle.

END OF FLASHBACK:

That was the day I lost my dignity, the day I lost myself. And it was all for you and your stupid life. I wish I never said anything to save you, I should have kept my mouth shut and my head down.

But for some reason a part of me is glad I said something, a part of me is glad you're alive and here, near me. Maybe I'm glad I drowned myself, like the white swan. Because it made me a stronger person. 

The Black Swan was always a more likable character anyways, she was the one who could hold on more to what she believed in. She was the one who got what she wanted in the end and she was the one that lived. Not in weakness but in strength. Me and The Black Swan are alike in many ways because of you Sanemi Shinazugawa.

Because this time like the black swan I will cling to what I want and I will live with it in the very end. You are what I want, you want your Giyuu back but Giyuu is gone and dead, there is only Tomioka now, and he is better than Giyuu in every way.

He isn't weak.

Sanemi:Tomioka?

Tomioka snapped out of his thoughts, apparently Sanemi stood there for 5 minutes trying to get his attention, he even poked his shoulder a few times but Tomioka didn't respond so he broke Tomioka's rules and spoke.