Kyn's POV
"So wassup? What you want to talk about?" Fier stares at me waiting for me to speak. I avert my eyes down to my hands as I play with my nails trying to muster up the courage to maintain eye contact but I fail. Feeling myself becoming emotional, I clear my throat.
"I think that we should stop this." I say barely above a whisper. Fier frowns up his face squinting slightly.
"What? Speak up Kyn. We in a loud ass coffee shop. What you say?" He leans in closer. I shift in my seat before clearing my throat once again.
"I said that we should break up. This isn't good for me." My voice cracks a little and I begin to bite on my lip out of frustration. I feel so fucking weak and I hate it.
"Break up? For what? What's the issue now? I thought we was good. I know I did some lame shit blocking you and wildin on the net but--" I interrupt him.
"And thats the issue. You're always trying to embarrass me whenever we get into it. You always doing something to try and hurt me and that's not love. I don't ever let anyone know when we're not good because I have enough respect for you and our relationship to not publicly clown you. Even when you deserve that shit!" I notice a few people from surrounding tables glance over at us and I lower my tone.
"It's the same cycle. We fight, you have these tantrums and you do some wild shit. Then come crawling back and my dumb ass always lets you. But at this point, I am so exhausted. I think this last time was the last straw for me."
Fier stares at me dumbfounded as if everything I was saying was foreign to him. "Kyn, I tried calling to apologize but you barely been picking up. I'm surprised I even got a text last night from you. Why you acting like this all of a sudden?"
"All of sudden? It's not all of a sudden. This is a constant thing with you. We fight, you treat me like shit afterwards then we break up or you don't talk to me for days at a time. You do the most on twitter and you try to embarrass me. And sooner or later, you come crawling back with the same sob story. I'm over the toxic shit. That's not how you treat people you love. Are you not tired of this?" I ask him hearing my shaky voice. I begin shaking my head as I fight back tears.
"Look, let's go to my car. I don't want to do this in here." Fier proceeds to get up and adjusts his jeans pulling them up slightly while looking down at me. "You coming?"
I sigh heavily and roll my eyes as I scoot backwards in my chair before standing. I grab my purse, phone and coffee then begin to follow Fier out of the cafe. My phone buzzes and I glance at my phone seeing Dia's name pop across my screen.
The text read 'Everything ok?'. I quickly reply to her before reaching Fier's car.
'Yea, talking now. Hella nervous but I'm good. I'll hyu when I'm otw home, love u'
Locking my phone, I hear Fier unlock his car and I open the passenger door getting into the car. Fier turns his car on and I instantly feel the heat turn on making my eyes watery a bit for a split second. I sit my coffee down in the cup container and rub my hands together before placing them against the vents. I really hate the winter.
I look over at Fier and he's all in his phone. "Really?" I scoff at him and he looks at me confusingly.
"Just chill, mama. I'm only hitting Gion back. It's about money. Give me one second."
I sit silently while I fold my arms glancing out the passenger window. I begin replaying my points over and over in my head so I don't forget anything. A few minutes later, I hear him send his last text then sits his phone down.
"Aight so look. I understand where you coming from. Niggas be on timing with you over shit that dont even be that serious. I can admit that I have done more damage than you ever have and you aint ever really did shit to me. So it's green as fuck of me to be doing the shit I do." I dont bother to look over at him.
"I can't explain why I do what I do except it be out of pure anger and ego. Mostly ego. I feel like you be trying me and I be letting my anger and pride get to me and thats fucked up because you my lady."
I roll my eyes and begin to shake my head.
"You don't treat your lady like a random bitch off the streets just cause you mad Fier!" He reaches for my arm and I snatch away from him looking over at him.
"Man, can you just chill out? I get it. I get why you feel this wa--"
"Do you? Do you REALLY?! Cause out of the 3 years I have known you and dated you, I can only seem to remember actually being truly happy for two. And maybe thats my fault...maybe I should've left way before now." I stare coldly into Fier's eyes as he sits there in silence.
"So- so- so you been feeling like this, huh?" He asks with a slight grin on his face. I cant help but to cringe.
"Don't." I scoff at him rolling my eyes for the 100th time. "Dont try to flip this on me, like be so serious right now. Be a man."
"Bruh what? Watch yo fucking mouth. I am a man. Fuck you talmbout?" Fier's voice begin to raise. I laugh to myself in my head.
"I have fucked up more times than I can count and you right, I don't really deserve to have you. Niggas would be gassed if they had you on their arm and Ive taken that for granted for too long. I guess a nigga got too comfortable."
"And you know what, that naturally happens but that doesn't mean to become stagnant. Like, of course you're gonna get sloppy and reckless because in the back of your head, you think I won't leave. And thats the biggest issue for me, I guess I gotta show you something."
"Kyn." I shake my head slowly staring out the windshield unable to look at him. I try to fight back tears but they decide to pop out anyway.
"No, Fier. I'm done. I have to let this go. For ME." I begin to bawl, unable to control my tears as I palm my face with both hands. I hear him sigh heavily.
"I'm so sorry, bean." He calls me by the nick name he gave me. My stomach begins to turn and I feel a rush of disgust flood throughout my body.
"Don't call me that. You don't get to call me that anymore!! This is done. I'm so done with you like I can't." I begin grabbing my belongings and Fier tries stopping me once again.
"Wait Kynlyn, just stop-"
I open the car door and step out slamming the door behind me. I don't think twice about looking back while listening to him call after me. I walk as quickly as possible to my car and I unlock the door. As I'm getting into my car, I hear my phone begin to ring. It's him. I decline his call and sit my phone in the passenger seat along with my purse. I realize I forgot my coffee in his car. I sigh and roll my eyes.
"I really could've used the rest of that damn coffee." I say to myself, putting the key into the ignition and starting up my car. After adjusting myself in my seat and buckling my seatbelt, I look around checking for cars before pulling out.
On the way out of the parking lot of the cafe, I notice Fier watching me, standing outside of his car with his phone up to his ear. I drive to the stop sign leading out to the main road and immediately come to a halt. My phone starts blaring again and I grab it, shutting it off. I turn my radio up a little, wipe my tears and drive out leaving Fier in the dust.
Hopefully for good.
