WRITTEN IN THE STARS ִ ࣪𖤐 TREVOR ZEGRAS

Chapter 4 ࣪𖤐

Present Day

࣪𖤐 TREVOR ࣪𖤐

If there was an award for the "Class A Jerk," I'd totally win it. I couldn't have gone more against the advice my sister gave me yesterday if I tried. In fact, I basically just watched Blair march off to her car. I kept paddling, hoping to clear my head and figure things out. But truth be told, a part of me just wanted to paddle straight after her, admitting she was right. Seeing her with her boyfriend all lovey-dovey, hit all the wrong buttons, and yeah, I was totally jealous. I could practically cue in that Justin Bieber song right now. Ugh, I groaned internally at the epic mistake I'd just pulled. Congratulations, Trevor, you've officially managed to push Blair even farther away. So much for trying to mend a friendship.

Half an hour had passed and there were no signs of Blair, Ava, Luke or his girlfriend. I sighed, maybe she left because she hated me so much and could not stand to spend the rest of the day with us. I took this as a sign to finally make my way back to the group, knowing that they were about to bombard me with questions. How could they not, she was peaceful by herself swimming in the water and then I came along and all of a sudden left the ocean crying.

"What the fuck happened, Z?" Cole asked as he pauses their game of beach frisbee. I groaned sitting on my towel and taking a swig of water, "Was she mad?" I reply dodging the question.

"Mad? More like fighting demons to try not to break down in tears in front of us" Quinn continues and that made the pit in the bottom stomach worse. I upset her so much she had to leave to cry, I fucked up truly and now Ava will have me by my throat for upsetting her best friend and role model. "What on earth happened on your swim?" Jack asks again, guess there is no avoiding this and I explain to them what had happened.

"Look Z, I understand it is not easy to see the love of your life with someone new but that was not the way to treat someone you love" Caulfield advises, I shake my head, "She's not the love of my life" I quickly shut down.

"Yeah and I am Alex Turcotte and I don't play for the Kings."

Quinn also decides to pipe in, "Zegras, you still love her and that is fine. But she is happy and that should mean you should be happy for her even if it is not you!"

I'm totally up for some constructive criticism, but when the guys start basically calling out my act, it's seriously taking a hit on my ego.

"You know what they say, if it was meant to be it will be and if you love someone you have to let them go" Jack also includes, I sighed, "Ok! Ok! When'd y'all become such wise assholes."

I could not help but wonder where she was right now, the trio and _____ have been gone for a long time. "They are getting ice cream" Quinn states curtly.

"No, How'd you kno-"

"You had that where is Blair look." And that just made me roll my eyes. By now it has gone past late afternoon to sunset hour and the breeze was coming in strong and yes I admit I was worried where Blair was. Was she okay? Does she hate me? Blair always forgets a jumper, and it is breezy now, did she have a jumper? All these questions clouded my thoughts. I was so caught up in my own thoughts I didn't see the four people I had just been thinking about approaching our group. Ok, the person I was thinking about.

Ava glares at me, fuck she knows. She immediately marches towards me as the other three go mingle with the others.

"Trevor!"

"I know I fucked up!"

"Fucked up?! More like you were a dick for no reason!"

"I know Ava! I am going to apologise, I feel terrible."

"As you should. But at least you realised."

I got nervous, I nervously chewed my lip and looked down at my feet, "Does she hate me?"

"She should, but she does not. She is more worried about you!"

Fuck.

Blair has always been a better person than I ever was. She was calm and I was not. She saw the good in people and I could not. She would calm me down when I was mad. She would distract me when I was anxious. She comforted me when I was sad. She has not changed and I have, and I have changed for the worse. I have been such an angry person since we ended things, I became someone I once hated. The guy who gets caught up with different girls every night, the guy who doesn't remember their names and the guy who never sleeps with the same girl twice. I watched Blair laugh with the guys, her smile still was the brightest and her eyes still sparkled whenever she laughed. She was still the same beautiful girl that I left behind three years ago.

As nervous as it makes me, I know I owe Blair an apology for what I said in the ocean today. "Hey Blair, can we talk?"

She looked at me for a second before agreeing, we walked away from the group and sat down near the rocks. We both sat in awkward silence, not knowing what to say to each other. I had to put aside my pride and apologise.

"You probably hate me and I don't blame you, but I am sorry for before. I feel like a dick, especially for assuming that you went unscathed from heartbreak too."

There was a moment of silence before she spoke, "All good Trevor, don't worry about it."

"But yes, I am jealous of Brandon" I admit and I could tell Blair was at a loss for words, fuck Trevor way to make it awkward. I cough, "Does he make you happy?"

"He does make me happy" She smiles and I can see her eyes sparkle as she thinks about him, I sigh, I wish that it was me that made her smile like that but I am happy Brandon treats her well.

"I am glad because you deserve the best! I want to be friends Blair, and if that means accepting that Brandon makes you happy then that is what I will do... Can we please be friends?" I plead I do not know what has come over me and why I am agreeing to do something that I do not want to do. It is because you love her stupid.

"Of course, we can still be friends, just because we aren't together anymore does not mean I don't care about you!"

"I care about you a lot Blair" I admit shyly and she smiles at me, She leans forward for a hug and I hug her back tightly. "I have been wanting a Blair hug since you walked in the other night!" We both laugh, I could feel her goosebumps.

"As usual, did you forget your jumper?"

Her eyes widened, "Shit! Brandon reminded me also, I can't believe I still forgot."

I took my hoodie off and handed it to her, "Here."

"No, no, no! You will be cold."

I chuckle, "You and I both know I can handle it, please, for me." I sent her puppy dog eyes, and she sighed taking it and putting it on. God, she is so beautiful even in my oversized hoodie which she is now buried in.

"You still have the same smell" She laughs.

"Of course, it is my favourite scent," because it is the cologne you gifted me on our two-year anniversary, I still reach for it because it reminds me of you. "We better head back before everyone thinks I've murdered you" laughing and she takes my hand as I pull her off the sand.

"We were just thinking of hitting the town, grabbing a few drinks and seeing where the night takes us" Turc's announced, The guys were packing up the beach set up. "You guys down?"

"Sounds good, let me text Brandon and Han to see if they wanna join!" Blair reaches down in her bag for her phone, I sigh but try to brush off that lingering feeling of envy. I was not about to destroy the progress I had made with Blair today.

I was so caught up in my own thoughts I did not see Jack come up beside me, "You guys ok?"

"I guess, I apologised and we are friends. Do I wish Brandon was still out of the picture? Most definitely, but he does make her happy and all I want for Blair is to be happy."

Jack nods patting me on my back, "Fuck, Blair is rubbing off on me. She just makes me a better person." I shake my head and sigh.

"She does, but she can still make you a better person even if she is just your friend. She is always going to have your back and be in your corner, remember that Z! Come on let's head back to change!"