Alexithymia

28

Sorry for being like this,
being an asshole that wandering around,
lingering through the atmosphere,
love bombing they say,
just want u to know that,
To have a courage to send a text to you now
seems like I need to ruminate more
yet it was easy,
guess it just me,
i've been there before,..
even more longer than this,
it makes me suffocate to death wish inside,
and now It feels that the same thing is bound to happen again.
fuck it, it's happening again
all the traumas, insecurities, flaws, jealousy that have been bottled up slowly fractured

I don't even try anymore...
I hope we still had a chance to confer about what's going on between us, crystal clear, just want to make sure that is it worth? or it's worthier if I save myself from being like I used to be.

To think about it,
It's hurt like hell tho
once again, sorry..

oh by the way, fuck insomnia!
I can't sleep?