A First for Everything (Cristiano Ronaldo)

First Time opening up

"Yes I want to marry you, just maybe not right now. Maybe Im just not cut out for that yet."

"Bull fucking shit Kendall you wanted to marry me in Brazil. So what happened in the last 24 hours?" He asks. Ive never seen him this angry. This was kind of a scary thing to see. His eyes are blood shot and I could see his veins popping out.

"I wanted to marry you in Brazil. And I still want to get married now, just I want to hold it off. I need to know that I'm making the right choice."

"Fucking christ Kendall I don't think you know how to communicate. At least have the decency to pretend marrying me wouldn't be the worst thing in the world."

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Cristiano's POV

"Im sleeping on the couch, don't bother waiting up." I murmur.

Thats how messed up this whole situation is.

Kendall says she doesn't know if were ganna last and that I might be a bad choice yet I force myself to sleep on the couch. In MY own house. Honestly the last time I felt this way was when my dad died. When I looked into his eyes for the last time and he told me to make him proud. Its the feeling of having your heart pulled right of your chest. Thats the thing about Kendall. I assume she has the right to pull my fucking heart out only because shes the one who makes my heart get all big and shit. Shes what I life for. Her and Junior. It just sucks so bad because Its like she doesn't feel the same way. Its like I'd give her the world and she wouldn't give me a minute out of her day.

I lay on the couch and pass out almost automatically.

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I wake up to someone shaking me. Kendall's figure is crouched down bedside me. Its dark and I cant see much, but I can hear her muffling.

"Cris I love you so much and ---" she breaths in heavily. Her hand is rested on me and her other hand is trying to wipe away her tears.

"I just-- I've never been so in love before. You don't understand. I had my heart broken before you and that was only when I thought I was in love. Cris... now im really in love and it--"

"shhh babe relax." I whisper. I sit up and pull her into my lap. Her words are almost unaudioable with the amount shes crying.

"He proposed and I said yes and then everything just changed and I don't want it to be like that with you because your the one person I cant afford to lose and Im sorry I don't know how to communicate Im just scared of everything that could happen."

I kiss the corner of her mouth. I didn't exactly know who 'he' was or that I wasn't the first to propose, but it didn't seem like the right time to get mad.

"I'd never hurt you Kendall. You have to understand that. Besides, I'm pretty stupid so if that were my intention I would have done it by now, I'd probably not last till the proposal part." I joke in attempt to hear her laugh. And that small barely audible giggle was enough for me.

"I love you." She says.

"I love you too."

"And I want to marry you, if the offers till on the table." she giggles.

"Hell yes."

"Im sorry for being so scared." She sniffles.

"Can we talk about who 'he' is?" It probably wasn't the right time to ask, but I felt like Kendall has this mind set right now, where she just wants to open up and I didn't know when she's going go back to shutting me out.

"He's fucking ass whole." She grumbles as she wipes a tear with the corner of her sleeve.

"Continue... "

"He proposed and then just changed. And I mean completely. He started treating me differently and than I caught him cheating on me. And it just killed. Like I didn't know what to do with myself. I just shut everyone out, completely because I didn't want to her the 'I told you so's' from my family. They kept warning me about him."

"Thats why you want there approval this time?" I ask and she nods her head in response.

Kendall's POV

"If I can get a beautiful girl like you to fall in love with me I think I can charm a few people into thinking im at least a semi-decent guy." He kisses the top of my forehead.

"Your not mad?" I ask.

"No. But babe, you have to start opening up and telling me stuff, not like shielding yourself from me. At the end of the day were suppose to be there for each other."

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Short chapter , sorry! Hoping to update again soon! I have a lot of free time on my hands lately.