There's Only You ✔

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

She sat cross-legged with her fingers folded on her lap, waiting patiently for me to open my mouth. The original plan was to tell her everything that went down; how I felt when he held my hand while he was driving and thinking that I saw Kayden at frozen yogurt where he pinned me against the building and intensely kissed me. However, the guilt that I felt earlier rushed back in full force.

“Olive?”

“What?” A bright smile touched her lips, oblivious to the severe guilt that was gnawing at me. 

“I’m a bad person.”

Instantaneously, her eager smile was long forgotten. Lines creased her forehead as she narrowed her eyes and cocked her head to the side. “What the hell are you talking about?"

Everything spilled out: that Garrett was trying to make small talk and asked me if I ever had feelings for Zach. Even saying the words tasted like vomit on my tongue.

The thought of seeing Zach in more of a romantic way made the frozen yogurt climb up my esophagus. I proceeded with the rest of the details of how he, then, asked about my feelings for Kayden. The part that made me feel guilty in the first place. I lied. Then I kissed him with the mouth that just lied to him. Of course the last part was the only part Olive held onto. 

“You kissed? On the first date? How was it? Was it more like a slow, passionate kiss or an intense, tongue-in-mouth, hands on your hips, your souls on fire kind of kiss?”

I gave her a pointed look to say that I was being serious even though the tone in my voice should've been what clued her in. A sheepish smile tugged at the corners of her lips.

"Sorry. Not the point."

"He asked me, point blank, if I had any feelings for Kayden and I flat out lied. I am a horrible person! Here he is, a guy that had liked me since we were kids and I lied to him about my feelings. But, despite my previous feelings for Kayden, I actually felt something for Garrett. What if this lie is gonna bite me in the ass? What if he somehow finds out I was lying and his heart gets destroyed because of me?"
 
"Bella." Olive's hand landed on my wrist. "You didn't do anything wrong. This was your first date with him. What did he expect you to say? 'Oh yeah. I totally have feelings for Kayden. And by feelings, I mean that I'm madly, irrevocably in love with him. Anyways, do you want a bite of my frozen yogurt? It's really good'. You couldn't tell him the truth."

I sighed. She was right. No way should I have ruined our first date by revealing my true feelings. 

I wasn't a bad person, my inner voice reminded me over and over again until it got through to my brain.

-

It was the third class of the day and I was already anxious to get the hell out of this hell hole for the weekend. Being the nerd that I was, I copied the notes written on the whiteboard onto my notebook to prepare for the upcoming test.

Eventually, I began to feel a presence next to me and I looked up to see Kayden staring down at me. He looked distressed; his hair was tousled, he was rubbing the back of his neck and he was avoiding eye contact.

A small part of me still couldn't stand seeing him with another girl. Even after having spent the previous evening with a boy who checked off everything on my list of what made my dream boyfriend.

"How did the date go last night?" He didn't look as excited for me as Zach and Olive did when they asked me about the date.

In fact, his lips were in a straight line. Maybe he wanted to hear that the date didn't go so well because he wanted me all to himself.