The Alternate World of RaStro

The Unexpected Turn

I'm so sleepy na. Two weeks palang kaming nag sho-shoot ng The Rich Man's Daughter para na akong nanglalata sa pagod.

This is my first time na gaganap bilang isang lesbian sa primetime TV. Okay lang sana kong talagang boyish yung character ni Althea just like sa character ni Batchi played by Chynna Ortaleza, pero hindi. Don't get me wrong, kasi kaya ko namang pag-aralan kahit anong role na ibigay sa 'kin. But ang role ko dito ay isang Femme, girl manamit, laging nag-ma-make up, pero girl din ang gusto.

Kagaya ko...

In real life...

I don't know kung matutuwa ako or matatakot. This character bilang Althea is a projection of my own being. The only difference is that Althea is out and free, and me, still imprisoned in my own little world.

I am scared na masanay.

Na isiping pwede.

I don't want to unleash something which I might regret later on. Ayoko pakawalan kung sino talaga si Glaiza de Castro.

My first and last relationship, mas mahirap pa sa math exam ko nung HS. He left me, walang pasabi that is because I don't want to have sex.

A plain and simple reason para manlamig s'ya sa'kin. I'm not against pre-marital sex. Yes, but it's not because of the endless lecture ng Nanay about the consequences, not even because of my faith. If you are in this industry, dapat maging open minded ka sa lahat ng bagay. But it doesn't mean pasukin mo.

Simple lang naman ang reason why tumanggi ako, hindi lalaki ang gusto ko...

That's the secret nang isang Glaiza de Castro, why she stayed single for almost four years now. If I'm a big star like Rhian Ramos at ma leak sa press ang ganitong secret, this would be a nuclear explosion, but sa status ngayon ng career ko, isa lang itong watusi. But I still refused to come-out. Never.

Sige ikaw mismo mang-lait sa sarili mo. Kutya-in mo pa pagkatao mo, maganda 'yan Glaiz. Hahaha sarcastic lang talaga itong kausap ko but I like talking to myself from time to time. I'm not insane, I'm just like that. And wait, talagang si Rhian Ramos pumasok sa isip mo ha. Glaiza, impossibleng maging Les si Rhian. Kaya tumahimik ka.

"Ate ano ba yung iniisip mo't para kang pusa doon sa Alice in the Wonderland." Si Alvin at ang kanyang pangbasag trip na script. Well hindi ko naman s'ya masisi, ako lang ang pwede nyang asarin.

"Anong meron sa pusa?" I took my phone from my purse and started reading tweets.

"Hahaha iGoogle mu nalang," sabay hagis sa 'kin ng hawak n'yang throw pillow.

"Salamat dito, matutulog ako," I'm about to close my eyes while hugging the throw pillow when my phone went off.

Is it wrong that I feel this way... nanlaki ang mata ni Alvin.