Just Let Me Go

The next day

The brightness of the sun creeping through the window highlighted my eye lids with yellow and my lashes fluttered open. My mind went to my thoughts of last night and my hand quickly went to my wrist. There was big holes i shivered in despair. How could i be that pathetic?! I fucked up again. I layed there for a few minutes and then realized there was dry blood all over my face and hands. They trembled nervously as they traced my clothes that were also stained with blood. I was horrified and disapointed in myself but i mannaged to slowly crawl out of my bed and on weak trembleing feet. I tore my stained red cloths and threw them in the shower and i also but my bare feet on the cold shower tile and the coldness shivered up my spine. I took nob and turned it on all hot. The burning water did sting my wrists but it massaged and realaxed me. I sat under it a long time but when my clothes were white again i stepped out and wrapped a towl around my weak body. The warm mist sprinkled the air and coated my body. I took my comb and smoothed out the knots in my hair and wrapped a towl around it. It was time to face my parents now. Not that they give a shit anyways but if i go there i know aewhats ganna happen they will probly scream at me and i will probly have a beer bottle thrown at me. I sighed as i turned the bathroom knob as the the cool breese swarmed around my body. I stepped in my room and threw on a simple silky blue top and short dark blue shorts as i was building up the courage to even take a step on the stairs to my abusing drunk pot head parents.