𝐑𝐞𝐟𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝗼𝐧 | 𝚂𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚛𝚎𝚍 (DISCONTINUED)

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３ ｍｏｎｔｈｓ ｌａｔｅｒ

I didn't figure it out.

Michael was so insanely persistent, but he was subtle with it. He only texted me on days he knew were tough days for the both of us.

My moms death day, Dante's death day, the day I got kidnapped, etc.

He'd call but I was too scared to hear his voice and he knew so when I didn't answer he'd text always asking am I okay. I reply most time. But they're short because I don't wanna give him any ideas that I'll be back.

I was so guilty, because I knew I broke his heart. I knew it and that night I realized that even when u don't plan on hurting someone, shit happens. Rather you're a good person or not. Somebody will always get hurt.

And even if it was officially over, I knew what type of power I'd have over him.

I could say I wanted to get back together right now, and he'd fly a million miles just to see me in a heartbeat. No matter the time, the year, what he had going on. He'd drop it for me.

Maybe it was good thing, who knows, I just knew that I needed closure and my new therapist had encouraged me to fly back to New York to see him.

He didn't know that I was coming.

Nini helped me pack my bags, she was totally against me going, she only had allowed me to go if she came with me.

Everyone around me has been on edge since the kidnapping.

I'm so scared to say that I miss the very person who took everything away from me but gave me it all in one.

...

My alarm woke me up, I was so tired. Teyshaun had stayed over for the night and offered to drive us to the airport so his appearance being the first thing I saw when I woke up wasn't a problem.

My body was sore though, when me and Teyshaun had slept together it was like 2 cousins who had just got done fighting.

My hand somewhere in his face, my toes somewhere on top of him, his arm sprawled across my stomach.

This time it was me laying horizontal on his stomach with him laying vertically as my feet dangled off the bed.

I giggled quietly as my eyes fully adjusted to the way we had slept and it wasn't as quiet as I thought because he woke up.

Before I could even say goodmorning, he launched me up off him.

"Stop eating." He said angrily and I looked at him confused.

"You so fucking big dude." He stressed and I gasped and hit him.

"Really?" I asked and he smiled.

"Yes really. Big ass." He said getting up out of my bed.

I rolled my eyes and figured I'd shut my big ass up.

So I stayed quiet the rest of the morning.

The way to the airport was long but I had my beats on so I was really just looking at every street and road we went on until finally we made it.

Nini was knocked out in the back seat while Teyshaun kept trying to talk to me but I just shut my big ass up.

As the car came to a stop he took my beats off then looked at me.

"What's the problem?" He asked.

"Nothing."

"Solàna." He warned.

"I'm big remember?" I said and he sighed.

"I was joking, chill." He laughed and then i laughed then it got quiet because it was really time to go now.

We got out the car, I woke Nini up as Teyshaun grabbed our bags for us. Nini hurried up and gathered her things while I stayed behind me and Teyshaun looked at each other.

"How long before I see you again Scrub ?" He asked and I looked down.

"I honestly don't know." I said fiddling with the necklace he had given me.

"It don't matter, just remember that I love YOU always. If u need anything let me know." He reassured.

We always had to cut it short, it was like a recurring cycle in our friendship.

"I love you more." I told him softly.

I hug and a kiss on the cheek from him had that eerie feeling gone and I was headed off on a plane.

...

When we arrived me and Nini went to go get a chopped cheese, she had never had one so I introduced it to her.

Afterwards we went to our bnb and put all of our stuff up.

I missed it here in all honesty.

It wasn't supposed to be like this but it was and I just had to accept that.

"I won't mind if you go see him sos." I heard Nini say. It was the first time she had mentioned Michael to me, well anybody except for Teyshaun.

Both Ace's and Michael's name ceased to exist back home. Partly because everyone knew the trauma it had caused and secondly because they were scared.

"I miss him. A lot." I almost cried thinking about it. Michael was truly a soulmate to me and I fucked it up. He protected me, he comforted me, he made life worth living and as much as I try to get over it there is no getting over it.

I felt love with him on such a raw level.  I know that seeing him I'll be reminded of that comfort, that warmth, that care I felt from him.

He reminded me of my mother, a lot. His love was so unconditional with me it was crazy.

Nini placed her hand underneath my chin, pulling my head up.

"I have no idea what you're going through or how you're feeling but Solàna, nana always told me life is too short to be keeping shit away from someone you love, so you go. You go speak your truth so your poor heart can finally be at ease."