♱⊱fyolai oneshots⊰♱

⊱set me free⊰

It was a winter day, Nikolai and Fyodor were sitting outside at the park on a bench. Nikolai looks at Fyodor trying to say something but h just couldn't and quickly looked away.

"What was it?" Fyodor asked.

"Nothing, I couldn't think of a a way to word it." Nikolai sighed.

Fyodor got closer to Nikolai and cuddled him.

"You know.. you can tell me anything, okay? I won't judge you for what you think." Fyodor whispers into Nikolai's ear. Nikolai finally got the courage to say whatever he needed to.

"Fedya, do you think I'll ever be free? Without leaving you here on this crappy earth?" He mumbled.

"Some day, but We will go out together, like a flock of birds flying away so beautifully."

Fyodor said tucking Nikolai's pearly white hair behind his ear. Nikolai sat up an looked at him with tears in his eyes.

"I want to go out together! I'm so glad w think alike.. I-i want us to truly be happy and be free.." Nikolai said as he pulled out a pistol from his coat. Fyodor looked at him shocked.

"K-kolya?.."

"Let's do it! We can finally be together, and no one is going to stop us."

He said as stood up and put the gun to his head.

"Nikolai, we can think of a more peaceful way to be free. We shouldn't do this with such a weapon." Fyodor mumbled. He didn't like where this was going.

"I love you, dos-kun. But I'm afraid I have chosen my path and it looks like you don't want to be free with me." Nikolai cocked the gun and smiled at Fyodor.

Fyodor dropped to his knees and crawled to Nikolai begging him to stop what he was doing.

"Please, kolya. Don't do this to me.." Fyodor cried.

Nikolai looked down at him and smiled.

"You will forever be my heart and my soul. Goodbye Fyodor Dostoyevsky."

Nikolai pulled the trigger at his head and finally was free. Fyodor couldn't believe his eyes.

Nikolai fell to his knees, smiled at Fyodor and fell to his side bleeding out his head.

Fyodor had crawled to him and held Nikolai's body close. You could still hear the gun shot echoing through the city.

Fyodor looked up for help but no one seemed to be around.

"H-help..He-"
Fyodor had choke while talking and couldn't yell anymore, he was choking on tears. He trembled and kissed Nikolai's forehead several times.

"I'm so sorry, kolya... I should've just let you be more free.."
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Nikolai's POV

Everything's dark and cold. I don't know where I am..
Where's dos-kun?! Fedya? Fyodor!
I shouldn't have done this.

I look around, everything was black. I try feeling what's around me but I was just gripping the cold, thin air.