soulmates // m.e

0.2 // the breaking point

It's almost been a month which means I'm leaving Matt for VidCon, and I'm turning 17. See, normally, people would be excited for these types of things. I'm excited for VidCon, sure. But I'm not spending it with Matt which makes me feel sick to my stomach. We've known each other forever- he was my first friend, first kiss, first boyfriend. First everything, basically! How am I supposed to just leave him? VidCon is just three days but I'll be staying in Anaheim for a week, maybe more. Hopefully Matt and I talk everyday like we said we would, even if it is hard.

Remember how we said we were gonna spend as much time as we possibly could with each other till I had to leave? Well, overall Matt and I hung out maybe 4 to 5 times, in 21 days.. Sure, we texted and face timed but none of that compares to hanging out with him.
I'm leaving in less than a week and I have to see him.

I grab my phone and go straight to messages.
As I scroll through the contacts, I come to a stop when I see his name and realize I haven't texted him in a while.. Sad.

I tap his name and begin to type.

M; Matt
S; Savannah

S; Hey Matt? We haven't really talked for a while and I really miss you. Please text me back once you see this, I need to talk to you.

I sighed and put my phone down and went to go straighten my hair.
As I was letting my hair down, I saw my phone light up and dashed to it.

M; Savvy, hey! Sorry I haven't really been on my phone much, I've been packing and thinking about stuff.. But anyway, what do you need to talk about?

S; Don't act like you're the only busy one here.. Ugh Matt just come over I'm not arguing with you over text, it's dumb.

M; Who said we were arguing? Alright whatever, I'll be over in five.

S; The doors open.

He gets me so frustrated sometimes, my god.
I untie my hair and brush it out to make straightening it easier.
I have wavy hair, so it's not too frizzy.
I add product into it to define my hair more and most of the frizz is gone.

I hear the front door open and close so I sit at my vanity and continue straightening my hair. The footsteps became heavier and louder which were actually kinda creepy, but I know it's Matt.

My room door opens a second later and I smile, but his facial expression makes my smile drop. He didn't look happy. In fact, he looked pretty angry if I'm being absolutely honest.

"Alright what is it now? If you didn't want to see me then why did you come?"

"It's not that I didn't want to see you, Savannah."

He never calls me by my full name unless he's gonna say some deep, inspirational thing you'll probably read all over tumblr one day.

I walked over to him and our faces were inches apart.

"Then what is it, Matt? What's so bad about me asking you to come over when I have one week before I have to leave to California.. To live my dreams, to-"

"You really wanna know Sav? You want to know why my face is like this? Have you ever thought about how I felt about you leaving.. I don't want you to go Savannah, okay. And spending more time with you is going to make that feeling worse because all I think about now is how I'm going to deal with you being gone. I don't care if it's for a week, alright? I'm not gonna be spending your birthday with you like I planned to. We're not going to have a dinner and a movie night, like I planned. We aren't gonna be together and I don't know how you expect me to hold up without you here. I've known you since kindergarten, Sav.. We spent every moment together since that day and now these tours are interfering with our relati-"

He stopped talking when he realized we were both crying and I looked down, then back up at him.

"Matt.. These tours are just the beginning, okay? We've been best friends for forever and now we're in a relationship. We have been for almost three years now, this isn't gonna be our breaking point, I'm not going to let it be. But the only way that's gonna work at all is if, you don't want us to break.. Do you?"

No answer.
I turned to start walking back to my vanity and felt a tear leave my eye and I just know there's more threatening to spill out but I wipe it away.

"Savvy wait!"

I feel a tug on my shirt and turn around to be greeted with his soft, warm lips.

I pull away and look up at him, smiling.

"I'm gonna miss you, Matt"

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really short chapter but i tried :/

don't really like how this chapter came out so im probably going to update twice this week, just stay
tuned, i guess.

- laysa☽