" Young people, the cemetery is closing. Please go home. " says one of the cemetery managers
The twelve young men leave the cemetery, Chan's friends go home while he heads for his lamppost where Seungcheol is already there, crying his eyes out...
" Seungcheol hyung ? "
The said Seungcheol raises his head and walks forward, slowly towards Chan when he reaches the latter's level, he lets himself fall forward. Chan catches him just in time, and feels his T-shirt getting wet...
" Seungcheol hyung."
" Chan, I'm sorry."
" If you're talking about your behavior..."
Seungcheol lets himself slide down the younger Chan's body and the two boys end up on the floor.
" Hyung, what's the matter with you ? "
" Let me die. I don't want to fight anymore."
" What ? No..."
" You don't know my life. "
" So what ? "
" I deserve to die ! And join my brother in heaven."
Seungcheol slaps Chan on the chest and cries. He reaches into the back pocket of his jeans and pulls out a knife. Chan takes it from him and sends him away.
" Seungcheol hyung ! Stop it ! "
" I need to die..."
" Why ? "
" Sooner or later I'm going to die anyway. We're all going to join the stars sooner or later."
" The later the better, don't you think ? "
Chan gently lets go of his elder and stands up, then holds out his hand to his elder. Seungcheol looks at it and stands up on his own...
" Chan if your life was horrible wouldn't you want to die ? " Seungcheol asks, looking out over the dimly lit horizons of the streetlight.
" I don't know Seungcheol hyung, I really don't."
" That's the problem, people talk about me as if they know me, but the truth is nobody knows me..."
" Why don't you open your heart a little ? "
" What's the point, I'm going to join my brother anyway. He's waiting for me up there."
Seungcheol takes one last look at Chan and leaves to go home...
Once there...
His parents are there, the mother slaps her son and starts to cry.
" What have we done to have only sons PD..." The wife asks her husband.
" I don't know..." Says the man, not knowing what to say.
" I feel like we should kill him too."
" No ! I mean he's still young, maybe we can do something for him."
Seungcheol looks at his parents angrily and screams...
" I'm not a faggot ! I'm dating a beautiful, intelligent girl she's won my heart..."
" Son, I'm proud of you..."
" Thanks Mom, I won't let you down, I'm not Choi Limin..."
Actually, yes he's like him, but he won't say it.
Chan for his part...
Arriving home, he asks himself a billion questions. Who is Seungcheol really ? What is he hiding ? Is he really happy ? Does he also wear a mask ? Are his malice and sadness linked ? A multitude of questions Seungmin can't answer. He goes over to his bedside table and sighs.
" Mom, do you have the answer ? You always had the answer to everything..."
Chan looks at his photo, where he and his mother are on it, smiles and cries quietly.
" I miss you so much Mom, I love you forever..."
He takes the photo frame in his hand and gently kisses the one where his mother is, then places the frame against his chest and but his head between his arms on his desk, while shedding a few more tears...
" You know, Mom, I'm starting to discover a boy who's a little strange."
He smiles, thinking of him.
" I think he's suffering, as much as I am, well he wants to die altogether..."
He looks at his photo frame...
" You realize wanting to die at such a young age, I wonder what's wrong with him."
Chan raises his head and looks out...
" Who are you Seungcheol ? What are you hiding ? "
He puts his head back between his arms and joins the arms of Morpheus, it's the first time in a long time that he doesn't fall asleep in pain, he just falls asleep with a head full of questions and for the first time in a long time, he falls asleep without having touched his weapon.
He wakes with the sun's rays, leaves his house and locks his door...
" Hey, it's Saturday." he says to himself with a smile.
He decides to go for a walk and heads for the bridge next door.
" Seungcheol hyung ? "
Where he finds Seungcheol lying on the ground, covered in blood, purple streaks and tears rolling down his cheeks...
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StreetLight || ChanCheol
Fanfiction- It was in the dim light of a streetlight that they met and decided never to let go of each other again, because they realized they needed each other to get better. - Enjoy ! -
