𝐀𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐭 𝐄𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐎𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫

53: Emotions

AVNEET NIGAM

I was sitting on the bed with his head on my lap and his face buried in my tummy while I played with his hairs.

Telling about his past and recalling all those haunted memories that you have buried Deep in your soul is not easy especially to tell someone else about that is not easy at all. It takes lot of courage to do that. After telling all that too you have this emotional turmoil going on in your mind where you just want to stay in peace mire like you crave peace where you can be left alone with your thoughts and emotions and just want to cry your heart out unless you feel like normal again.

So I totally understand his condition because he has been silently crying since a long time and now his tears have seem to stop. I caressed his hairs and scalp to give him the comfort he want and peace he craves.

I so wanted to be there for him when all this happened to him even though you know you cannot be you still think about you being there, to be with him and to be his support, to hold him when he falls down.

It doesn't matter wether you are a male or female everyone needs a shoulder to lean on when things go wrong. Everyone feels emotions. Emotions or feelings word which we all at some point of life hate so much like why do we have to feel things? Can't we be emotionless person? Can't I become a stone hearted person?

Every person do have these questions at some point of his/her life but then it is also a word which we love so much at the other point of life like I am so blessed to experience the feeling called love. You feel happiness. You feel freedom. These are some point of life when you love the word feeling.

Life is just so unpredictable you might hate it at the moment and next moment you might be loving it. I guess that is what all life is about, to have ups and downs, feel sorrow and happiness, feel hatred and love.

I think life is a mixture of emotions. It is an experience of feeling the emotions.

"What are you thinking?" He asked looking at me as he remained in the same position with his hands wrapped around my waist.

"Nothing. Just about life." I shrugged it away.

"You know today by saving your life I haven't save just one life. I have saved two" Hia voice came out as wishper.

I stilled.

My hands stopped.

Heart started beating faster.

Does he know?

But how?

"Yours and mine" He continued looking deep into my eyes. His intense gaze piercing my soul.

"If som-something would have happ-happened to you I would have died avneet. I seriously would have died. I don't have the courage to look at the other person whom I love die in front of my eyes. I am not strong as I make everyone believe. I am broken. I am messed up and trust me you deserve better."

"You deserve someone who is stable. Someone who is not broken up in pieces. Someone who can give you all the happiness you deserve. Someone who don't have trust or anger issues. Someone who has pure heart just like yours. Someone who is strong and courageous. Someone who can give you a peaceful life."

"You don't deserve someone like me who is broken. Someone who is devasted. Someone who has anger and trust issues. Someone who has killed people. Someone whose heart is anything but pure. You don't deserve someone like me whose life is full of chaos. I am not goo-"

I cut off his rubbish by placing my lips softly on his and just kept them there for some moments neither of us moving our lips just feeling each other. My hands went to his chest and I moved my lips against his ever so softly as if he was a fragile glass which could break if I applied any sort of pressure. He also moved his lips against mines after few seconds, both of us assuring each other that we are safe and with each other, just reminding each other about our presence. No matter how many times I kiss him I would still feel like I am kissing him for first time.