𝑫𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝑳! 𝑫𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝑻𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆

Chapter twenty:) Belgium

WARNING! It can be bad words, self hate and sex scene in this story.

"OSCAR!"

"HAVE ANYONE SEEN OSCAR?!"

"OSCAR PIASTRY!"

"OSCAR PIASTRI!"

"WHERE IS OSCAR PIASTRI?!"

"OSCAR! WHERE ARE YOU?"

I heard Alex, Max, Zak, Daniel, Lewis and Sebastian screamed but I didn't have the energy to answer them. I just sat and hide from everyone I could. I saw how my arms were shaking and bleeding. I couldn't stop hurting myself. I also couldn't breathe and couldn't see clearly. I closed my eyes again and was about to put the knife on my arms again but then someone stopped me and took the knife away from me. Everything was blurry and I couldn't see who it was until they hugged me. I recognize the smell. It was Lando. He didn't say anything at all. He just had some cold water with him and washed my arms with it before he took out two bandages out of his pocket. He put them around my arms and kissed them. After that he wiped away my tears and gave me a kiss on the lips. Then he sat down behind me and held me tight.

"I'm not going to tell anyone! Or I'm just going to talk with Sebastian about it. Text him were we are and that he can't tell anyone about it" Lando said before he gave me a kiss on the neck. I just nod a little bit and did what he told me to do. After a few minutes Sebastian showed up with tears in his eyes. He fell to the ground and just stared at my arms. I felt how my eyes was crying again and I felt so bad.

"I'm so sorry Seb! I just.. Sorry! I don't know what happened! I just.. I'm so sorry!"

"Hey hey! Oscar look at me! I'm not mad at you! Let's go to your hotel now and we can talk! Lando you are joining too!"

"But what if.."

"I take care of that Oscar! No need to worry!" He smiled and we all stood up and walk away from there. We got out from my hiding spot and started walking through the paddock. Sebastian and Lando tried to keep everyone away from me and not get any questions. When we finally was in Sebastian car he had borrowed we all took three deep breaths before he started the engine and drove off. The ride was quite quiet the whole time. Lando and Sebastian sat in the front of the car and I'm in the back. I almost fell asleep but Sebastian park the car and we jumped out. Sebastian locked the car and we walked in to the hotel. Took the elevator to my floor and when we were at my room I threw myself on the bed. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I took my strength and sat up on the bed and looked around in the room and saw it was a completely mess. Then I looked at Sebastian and Lando.

"Sorry but I think you guys should leave! I must fix this chaos!"

"Stop Oscar! Don't do that!"

"What do you mean Seb?"

"I think I leave you two alone! See you tomorrow Oscar!" Lando said before he left the room.

"Stop pushing people away! You always push people away when it is chaos! It was wrong of me to say to Lando come with but you owe him a thanks for helping you today! But you can't even do that! Daniel and Lewis have told me everything they know about that Lando and Logan thing! I get that you are confused about your own feelings but that doesn't mean that you can push people away when they want to help! It hurts to see you like this!" Sebastian said while trying not to break down in to tears. I was about to stand up and give him a hug but then it knocked on the door. It was Daniel and Lewis. I let them in and Lewis went straight up to Sebastian and hugged him. Daniel just looked around and shakes his head.

"It looks like a bomb have exploded in here!"

"I know Daniel! It is chaos!"

"Like your life!"

"LEWIS!" Sebastian yelled as he smacked Lewis head.

"What?!"

"Maybe think before you talk?"

"I always thinking!"

"You sure?"

"Yes! I'm not stupid?!"

"Sometimes I wondering"

"HEY!" Lewis yelled and me and Daniel tried not to laugh at the situation. They was arguing about stupid stuff for like 15 minutes before Sebastian kissed Lewis on the lips to shut him up. Lewis turned into a tomato and me and Daniel burst into laughter so we couldn't stand. After a long good laugh we stood up and Lewis face was back to normal while Sebastian had started packing my stuff.

"You don't have to do that. I'm not going to travel until Monday"

"Didn't Daniel tell you?" Sebastian said and we all turned around to Daniel.

"I maybe forgot to tell him"

"Tell me what?!"

"We going to UK right after the race! So you have to pack everything tonight and I take that to my hotel. You don't have to take it to the paddock!"

"What? Why?"

"To hangout of course! And Lewis got a opportunity to go and watch the motogp! He could take three person with him!"

"But Lily and Alex wedding?"

"They going to get married the last week of the summer break so no need to worry!" Daniel smiled. They help me pack all of my stuff except that I needed tomorrow. Like toothbrush, toothpaste and some clothes. When we were done Lewis and Sebastian left with my things and said good night. It went really quiet when they left because neither me or Daniel said anything. I just sat on the floor looking at my phone and Daniel sat on the bed looking at his phone. We sat like that for like a hour before I heard him gave away a big sigh. I looked up and saw a sad face on him. Like it was almost like he was about to cry. I stood up and walked up to him. Put my hand on his back and just looked at him. I didn't really know what to do or ask him. So I instead looked like a creep.

"Stop looking at me like that. It creeps me out"

"Sorry I just didn't know what to do" I tried to smile. He gave me a small smile before he stood up.

"What is it Daniel?"

"I just started thinking about Jules"

"Jules Bianchi?"

"Yes. He was a close friend and I just.. I don't know" he said and took a deep breath. " It is his birthday in a few days"

"Oh! I didn't know. How do you think Charles going to do? I heard that they were pretty close before the crash" I said but I only got a nod from Daniel as a answer. Then he just left my hotel room. I had completely forgot that people had died in this sport. Like I had completely forgotten about that someone had died in the sport this year but in one of the lower career. But then is me who had made shit and drama between two drivers because I can control my emotions.

What if they starts fighting at the wedding?! What if they blame me for the fight? What if Zak found out and kick me out? What if I can't choose? No I have to or they are going to kill each other!