FELIX X SKZ OT8

Stress reliever - 2Chanlix 🥀💚

Felix likes to play video games if he is under a lot of stress and pressure to relieve some stress and to get rid of the thoughts. He starts to play late at night and forgets to sleep. Changbin and Chan are concerned for their boyfriend.

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"LEE FELIX you better turn the fucking computer of or I'm going to tell Hyungs about it", Jeongin screames at his roommate, who got scared for a second because of the loud call of his name. But after Felix realizes that it was just empty threats, since even Jeongin doesn't want the hyungs to come in, since he knows that they will lecture him  too since he's not asleep yet, Felix simply ignores him and tries to be quieter so as not to disturb the younger one any longer. Besides, he doesn't want to risk Jeongin getting the hyungs and he doesn't just mean Changbin and Chan, his boyfriends, but also Minho, Jisung and Hyunjin, who don't like to see Felix retreat into the world of video games again and stays awake and suffers from lack of sleep.

Felix likes playing games and he has to admit, he's not the best, but he doesn't do it to prove to anyone that he's good. No, he does it because it saves him from this stressful and frightening reality. He knows that he could turn to Changbin or Chan or one of his other members at any time and he has done that often in the past, but he quickly noticed that the other members hardly have any time. Even during a stressful preparation phase they prefer every free minute sleeping or resting rather than talking to Felix about his problems, even if they always claim otherwise, but Felix can see it in their eyes and therefore doesn't want to be another burden for them.

Felix also sees playing video games as a hobby and hobbies are fun and distract you, that's a good thing... isn't it?
His hyungs would say otherwise since constantly playing late into the night has already become an addiction and Felix plays late into the night even on days off. Maybe it's not that noticeable because he can sleep longer and get more rest, but even then it's especially noticeable to his boyfriends. Felix isn't a particularly good liar or able to keep something a secret for long, so it's noticeable to Chan, who is a very good observer, and Changbin, who spends most of his time at Felix's side and therefore knows him better than anyone else (apart from Chan), immediately if Felix is ​​feeling poorly or has not gotten enough sleep again.

Of course, the two of them immediately worry and then stop Felix from spending any more nights in his room and "force" him to sleep in Changbin and Chan's room. But when a comeback is around the corner, even his boyfriends hardly have time to check on Felix and Jeongin is the only one who notices that Felix is ​​sitting in front of the computer for ages again and hardly gets any sleep. But he always forgets to tell his hyungs because of the busy schedule. Most of the time he has forgotten it by the next morning because the only thing he can think about is that he has to get to his training as quickly as possible.

Felix, however, doesn't see this as a problem. On the contrary, he thinks it's just a hobby that relieves him of all the stress and lets him think about something else. Felix needs this. He needs the distraction and the feeling that there is something else in this world besides stress, work, responsibility and obligations. Felix needs freedom, space and attention. You would think he gets enough of the latter, since he is an idol and he has thousands of fans, his family and his members who are all proud of him and love him very much. But that doesn't feel real to Felix.

What if he hadn't become an idol? His personality wouldn't have changed, would it? He would still be the clingy and cuddly type, wouldn't he? If he hadn't become an idol, no one would know him. He would still be the unremarkable boy from Australia with his gold watch and his wannabe-rich demeanor. He would never have met the boys and his boyfriends. Maybe he would never have dared to come out because he would still be in the strictly Christian area. His parents never understood that there was something else outside of their strict life. They would have forced Felix to become a doctor or a lawyer.
Felix wouldn't have gotten the attention he always wanted.