Cetus {H. Shota X M. Reader}

7

Shota looked shocked but I couldn't decipher if that was from my crying or what I had said, his hands moved away from my shoulder and I knew I was done for. I got up and ran, I had no clue where to but I ran, and ran, and ran until my throat screamed for a drop of water and my legs wanted nothing more than to give into gravity. 

I fell to the ground, I felt like I couldn't breathe anymore. I looked around, I wasn't lost but I couldn't quite remember where to go. Then I spotted it, the park, the same one from my dream. 

"You bitch" I mumble trying to stand and walk over to it, by now the sun was starting to come up and a few street lights were turned on. I laid down in one of the little tunnel things I would play with when I was younger. I wanted to scream and cry until they had to call the cops on me but I held it in and watched as the clouds slowly moved overhead. My eyes were red and all I could do was rub them repeatedly. 

Every time I would close my eyes I would see his face, Shota's. What was he doing by now? Telling everyone I was some creep, or maybe he was telling Steph to check me into a mental hospital. At this point, I might need to be in one. The sky turned that light blue color that wasn't quite morning but almost there, and that's when I realized I had left my phone at the house. I sighed and let my head fall back onto the tunnel as I placed my fingers through the holes in the side. 

I don't remember much of what happened, just sitting there for hours they felt like days but I couldn't care to move, where would I go if I did? I never thought I would run away, not like this at least. I left five basically strangers all alone in my father's house, what would he do if they burnt the house down or something? I decided I could find a place to stay until I knew they had returned to Korea. 

By the time I had gotten out of the tube, it was maybe around lunch time and I saw a couple of children. I stretched my arms up and started walking back from where I came, I was almost sure I had seen a convenience store around. My heart stopped as I saw Steph with Intak behind him talking to some people, I looked around for a hiding spot but as soon as I laid my eyes on one they spotted me so I made a run for it.

I was fast but Intak was faster, he quickly had his arms wrapped around me leaving me dangling. I cussed loudly, people looked at me and gossiped, I felt anger and only anger. Intak carried me to the house that was closer than I had thought as I kicked and cussed him out. I felt like ripping my hair out, this was all my fault and now I'm reaping what I have sewn. 

At some point, we make it to the house and Intak finally sets me down, I almost fall because of my tired legs. I just stand there in front of them -it must be a pitiful sight-  a fragile-looking boy sobbing his heart out not saying a word. Steph rubs my head as he pulls me close and hushing my sobs. 

"what happened Bambi" He hums to me, his using my nickname helps soothe me. I look up at him as I try and stop crying.

"I said something...I didn't mean it" I try and get out as I cry, he seems to understand enough. Shota must have told him the rest beforehand. 

"It's okay," He says as he rubs my head "God you've always been sensitive to others' feelings" He mumbles with a small laugh

"On my empath shit," I say with a shaky voice as I hold up a peace sign and cry before hugging him again, his hand stays on my head as he holds me for a while. This is why he's always been my favorite family member other than my father, everyone else yells when something like this happens -when I cry over others' emotions- but he calms me and accepts that I can't help it. 

"Shota's not mad, you know," He said, I looked up at him slightly shocked after all I'd done today he hadn't decided I was too much. 

"But I-" 

"Yeah, but Shota said you did that when you were younger too" Steph interrupts with a small laugh making me laugh as well. I want to find Shota but at the same time, I want to hide away from him in a small hole. I don't get much of a choice as I feel two arms wrap around me from behind. 

"I was so worried" He hums into my back as I stiffen up. I turn around and look up, he looks so clearly scared and almost as if he was crying. He rubs my cheek lightly before hugging me tightly again as if I would run again if he let me go. 

"Ok, Shota let him go before he sufficates" Shota listens to Jiung but still holds onto my sleeve. 

"I'm so sorry" I apologize as I look down. Shota rubs my head and tells me it's fine but something in me doesn't think it's fine, I should have just talked to him and not run. 

I stay close to Shota for a while, not really having a choice since he won't let go of my sleeve, I can't help but wonder why he's so scared I'll run. Does he still care that much about me like when we were little? Maybe he's scared I'll get hurt and P1harmony will be to blame? I decided I'd ask him about it when we are alone but right now everyone's eyes are on me. 

I apologize sincerely to all of them and am basically forced to answer a couple of questions mainly about what happened before I ran. I still felt this gut-wrenching feeling of guilt build up in me and I decided to write letters to them all saying I'm sorry for all the trouble I caused today.