seventh heaven • 𝒘𝒘𝒅𝒊𝒕𝒔 𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒕𝒔

to love and be loved • the guide

a/n: i livelaughlove kristen schaal! my number one favourite character of hers is louise from bob's burgers! But the guide could be taking over that spot, she has my heart.

summary: after giving up and letting the darkness surround you, a beating in your heart could be heard, there are still good things in this world.

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Another day, another week, another decade. You have a weird relationship with time, it has always felt so far, so foreign.

It reminded you of the times when you were still human, such a young innocent unfortunate soul. Life was tiring before but those times made you felt the most alive, general opposite of now. Inside and out.

You remembered the times when at night your mind was eating you alive, wondering if this would be your last or a cut for a new start.

Those didnt last long, that is until you manage to flirt with a stupid vampire one night and boom he turned you into one, as simple as that.

Your transformation was going on well, you were so happy that you would never kiss this earth goodbye or sleep forever. You finally got a shortcut at life, a golden ticket to a forever never-ending.

But what happens when everything you yearned for came true? What is your purpose here? Theres nothing or no one holding you to keep nor to stop going.

Thoughts like these never left your mind for decades, vampires call it 'Vampire Depression' it's also a thing for vampires surprise-surprise.

So its expected for your housemates' understanding when youre going through spirals like these, having their own nightmares in the dark. They wished they could help you with yours but who's keeping their's out.

So they cope with however they can, having bloodfeasts, opening a vampire nightclub, raising children, have sex, have kinky sex, threesomes, foursomes, fivesomes. Whatever that could make them feel alive in their endless lives.

You, however have checked all the lists. Have being a vampire for decades could lead you to many things and you did many things, things that you regret, things that made you wanted more, but still nothing could fill the void in that empty heart of yours.

Today, you decided to kick the lid of your coffin and wake up. The lack of emotions on your face is a sign to take it easy on you, unfortunately someone didn't take the memo.

You sat on your usual seat, eyeing the old bookcase to see who's your companion for today when a new voice lured you in.

"Oh! It's- it's you! I've heard so many things about you! ...come to think of it why haven't we seen eachother that much?" You looked over to see a woman dressed full in black with her bronze hair perfecting her spooky look.

Not being able to recognize her, you decided to participate in the conversation. Hey, you are depressed, not rude.

"Ah! Hello, my apologies but i've been a bit swamped lately" 'ahh..' the blonde nodded, a smile on her face. When you thought that would be the last of your conversation, you look down to your book ready to bury your nose in when you feel someone watching you.

Glancing from the tippy tops of your book, she was indeed watching you. You glanced to every inch of the room searching for one of your housemates but found none.

Her eyes are still fixed on you, though you find no menace nor unpleasentness behind them. Maybe curiousity or even.. admiration?

Shaking off your thoughts you quickly met her eyes and said "I hope it's all good" her eyes widened clueless she asked "Um.. pardon me but what is?" internally slapping your face you forced out a nervous giggle "I meant- what you heard about me, i hope they're all well"

"Ohh, yes, yes, why? Has someone been bluntly belittling you? I'll make sure they are punished and to never be seen-" you quickly interrupt before things became more dark "No! No- i appreciate your concern but there's no such thing, don't tell them- i do love my housemates.. but they could infurating sometimes.. "

With a nod there comes that silence again, actually you never want this conversation to end soon. It's.. good to meet someone new once in a while and to be honest, your companion right here is not the worst. In fact, you actually enjoy her company.

You gape at her face, taking every detail you can before she look up meeting your eyes again and said "You and your 'housemates' are close.. doesn't it feel nice to be loved by someone? Y'know you with your housemates and stuff- i mean i'm not surprised if a vampire like you have a partner already"

Surprised, you stuttered "W-what-" she continued "Yea! For examples you're attractive, you're cool! You've been into great stuff and do you know you're popular on the vampire community?!? Oh! Everyone either wants you or wants to be with you! Ohhh!! You are just perfect!"

Heat rose up from your dead cheeks as you try not to pop you eyes out "I- i meant- the loved by someone bit.. b- but! I'm flattered-" Realizing what she had rambled the blonde eyes widened, if you squint you could see blush appear on her beautifull white pale skin.

"My apologies, i was.. rambling wasn't i" "No! No- It's alright!" Silence washed over the room, you were surprised that none of your housemates or even guillermo has stumbled upon here, but you're grateful.

You couldnt hide the bashful smile from forming as you giggled. Looking up from where she stared off she watched you, happy to see that she could pull that kind of reaction for you, your laugh is beautiful.

She's surprised yet thrilled to see you tonight, she didnt thought that she'll be able to meet you. After meeting many vampires that to be said is the most powerful, breathtaking, beautiful or even perfect. She felt none has the slighest chance to be any of that except you. In her eyes youre a God, someone she would never have a chance on.

You breathed out of your nose as you continued "It does feel nice being loved by someone, but i haven't felt that in a long time. I never thought i could anyways. But what about you? I'm sure someone is lucky enough to have you" she looked at you, your words struck out something.

"Well.. i don't think so?..i don't know. I- i've been trying to try the old thing again, ya know- the love and be loved thing but it hasnt been working" she looked down, you could see the sorrow from her eyes.

Standing up you left your seat to the one besides hers and took her hands in your own. This is bold too bold, but for her you feel like you'd do anything.

"Everything takes time and that includes love, finding the right person is not going to be an easy task but im sure you'll found them" you look into her eyes and she on yours, if the beautiful dead pale skin of hers still have blood under she would be blushing right now.

You look down to your feet as you gathered some courage, your hands are still on hers.

"How about tomorrow? You and me? I'll take you out to- um- somewhere nice i promise-" the smile on her lips get ls bigger every second "oohhh!!! Yes! Yes! Yes! (Y/N) are you asking me on a date right now?" Nodding your head up and down before you got squashed by her hugs.

You giggled happily, unaware of the proud and happy faces watching outside of the room.

This, this feels nice. You can't tell if it's real or not but you could feel a heartbeat in that cold little rotten heart of yours, maybe it is good to wake up and do something today.

Maybe you should do it everyday, for you and for her.

The End!