life came true.

why,why shall you have left me?

"whenever i look at you i can't help but  feel a tinge of jealousy."

I-wait...what are you saying?  is this the end?

"fortunately yes."

stanley slowly got up from the couch due to the sound of his alarm ringing. 

he groaned in annoyance and turned off  his alarm and fully got at least not before falling over due to standing up to fast. i got up after and wiped my knees. i went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth for 5 minutes as i got distracted. i take my clothes out of the dryer before realising i have no shirts and still have my binder on. 'hm.. that's why my chest hurts. eh whatever i have school"..

i changed my clothes and got ready for school. i was wearing black pants and my binder with my hoodie covering it. i walked out the house with my headphones on listening to mama's boy and simple russian girl while reading bungou stray dogs fanfics online while walking to school. 

as i made it to school i had around 5 minutes to spare before the bell rings. i realised most of my classmates were not  there. i sighed as i had no one to talk to.  

....

the bell finally rang. i took out my headphones and walked inside as the teacher let us in. i sat at my desk as redsky walked past and said "oooo Amanda and star k-i-s-s-i-n-g in a tree" then she  patted my head and walked away. 

the teacher sat the desk and turned on the smartboard and started teaching us whatever.

once it was recess time i sat outside near the doors with my notebook and pencil. you saw the teachers walk out the door and finally star walked through and hugged stanley. "dude that was the most boring class. i literally put i don't know and he graded it and let me leave" stanley couldn't help but smile and laugh. stanley and star talked and drew together. once recess was over they got to their classrooms and waited for the school day to end.  

once the bell rang it signaled all the students it was time for lunch. stanley didn't go to lunch and stayed in the classroom drawing and doing some coloring pages. **he didn't want to eat. he had no reason to eat. he only ate once a week anyways and that made him full.**

(**TIMESKIP**)>>

stanley was walking home. listening to music again holding his chromebook with his backpack. once he came home he was greeted by no one. what did you expect his mother to say hi even though she's right there playing some game? pathetic. 

stanley sat on the couch basically where he slept all his life. he went on his phone playing bungo stray dogs tales of the lost silently obsessing over Margaret and Lucy and Akutagawa. i mean how could you not?!

after five or seven hours his dad came home with a paper bag and looked exhausted. 

his dad looked at stanley. "how's it going? hope you didn't spend to much time online."

Stanley simply glared at him in response which said enough.

he looked at his wife. "how's it going honey? i hope you spend some time with the kid. y'know how she gets without attention. like an angry brat i swear." 

stanley could only glare and grit his teeth.

suddenly stanley's phone lights up he looks at it before his dad took it and put it way on top of the shelf. 

 "your spending way too much time on that thing"

"whatever" was the only thing that come out of stanley's mouth.

his dad sighed and walked to his bedroom and changed clothes and fell asleep.  

once he fell asleep stanley grabbed his phone as his mother wasnt paying attention and you opend your phone and went on tiktok and checked the message. the message was from star your girlfriend. it said "dear stanley, as much as i love you, its not working out. you only talk aout bungou stray dogs and nothing else. oh and i recommend therapy. you definalt kin dazai,fyodor,nikolai,chuuya.  we are like polar opposites. if only you were better.-star."

what?...no...This can't be happening! of course when i think i have love it all crumbles down.

why am i like this? Why can't I be better? im such a fool.   

only a fool could think love could exist and they could have something nice for once.  

star has left. stanley is alone. not fully alone maybe his older brother treats him kinder than the world. wait what am i saying? stanley is dramatic. this guy has no hope. he doesn't need love. 

But maybe he does need love?...