you got the wrong girl

part 26

Lotte POV

I woke up and my body was on fire and yes I want it to stop burning,I don't know what I was thinking if I ever do that shit again they better kill me because I'm going to poison them,I hope they break they're bones

"Morning Melon"Bluke said with a wide smile on his face,ohh how cute I so wanted to kiss all over his face my cutie pie.I did a small wave smiling like I have never seem this man in my life,I feel stupid now 'i thought we are mad at them' my brain said 'shhh you' my heart said

"Melon are you okay"he walks towards,and I melt like an ice cream on a hot day "ahhh huh" I hummed softly hiding my face under the bed covers 'wow you are stupid on another level ass'my mind is rude on another level today, like why would you say that "Melon let me see your beautiful face"

He said sitting on the bed pulling the covers"see you are beautiful"he said kissing my forehead "now why are you hiding your beautiful face from me?"he asked pull my body on his lap "I don't know"I said hiding my face on his chest "do you want me to feed you?" He asked rubbing my back softly,a yawn escaped

"Are you still tried Melon?"he voice softly "yeah but I will be fine!"I said as I started eating while Bluke watched my every move

"Let's get you ready for a dress shopping!"he said taking the bowl of cereal out of my hands and walking to the bathroom with me in his arms  "why are we going dress shopping"

Gosh I feel like a child again, everything it's like it's new again,all the things I knew seemed to disappear in my mind, only things that is doesn't disappear it's Matthew, Luke and Bluke.I feel like a new person,I have never felt like this before, it's happiness on another level,I don't want it to stop

I love this new me,I feel like I have a reason to live a reason to woke up,I reason to be me.I have never felt like this with my family,I'm always the odd one out.Truth be told I never real had anything growing up,I didn't have a reason to live,I was always the black sheep and they made sure they reminded me of it

Maybe the reason for me to make this happy family thing in my head was because I didn't want to die,I made this up so I can live so I can feel like I  have a reason to live.

Now let me be honest with myself

'Do I want to go back?'

'no'

'Did I love my life?'

'no'

'Was I truly happy'

'no'

'Then why did you go back'

'because I thought it will make a difference'

'do you want to go back?'

'no'

"Melon are you listening?" He asked shaking me a little bit,I smiled at him "I'm so sorry,I didn't mean to not listening I won't do it again"he wiped the tear that rolled down my face,oh my goodness why am I crying"talk to me what is going on?"

We are now on the toilet seat "it's not no biggie I'm a big girl, everything is fine"I stand up taking off my clothes getting in the bath tub,I lowered my head in the water.As my mind because darker and every muscles in my body become num

"Melon"Bluke yelled at me pulling me out of the water "what is wrong with you?"he layed my on his chest as he shakes out of fear "I can't lose you,I just can't"both our heart rate as we hold each other tight "I'm sorry"

"Stop apologizing Melon because it's not helping, Can you please tell me what is going on!?"I could hear how hard this is on him "I don't know really,I just realized what it is to be truly be happy.I thought I was happy but I just realized I was never happy,I just found out that their is happiness this is happiness,being here with you it's amazing.I love being happy,I don't want this happiness to stop so I'm scared that it will end before I'm ready"

As I was speaking all the pain I went through come out as tears roll down my face,and it felt amazing it's like all the world jumped of me,my shoulder relaxed as my mind restarted.A wide smile on my face as Bluke smiled with me "I'm happy for you,gosh I love you" he said as we stare at each other's eyes

"I love you too"I felt full,I love him.I stand up ready to bath "you want to join me?"I ask helping him stand up "sure why not"we got in,he got in first as l got after him as I layed my head on his chest

"Siri"
"Hello Lotte"
"Can you please play I'm yours by Alessia Cara"

It starts playing as I hummed softly as Bluke washes me,when he was done he got out picking me up wrapping me with a towel

I'm wearing a white mini dress and white sneakers

"Hello my husbands"I said as I walked down the stairs with Bluke "hello Red" "Hello Star" I walked until we all in the same level, while I looking up at them as they all showered me with compliments while I blushed

They look like they are my bodyguards, they're not smiling will I laughed my heart out "so you are telling me that Bluke once fall down the stairs and blamed all the guards" I asked as I was laughing"yeah and we got punished" Matthew said as Luke agree

"What did you do?"I asked still laughing that was stupid and rude,it was his fault"no eating for two days, we worked for 20 hours and slept for 4 hours and he wake us up with cold water and it was winter"Luke said as I stare at Bluke as he smiled like he didn't do anything

"Uke?"I asked and he laughed out loud that is got us surprised "it was not my fault, they should have told me there was another stairs"I joined him as Luke and Matthew stare at us like we are stupid

"You guys are weird"They both walked away as I run after them and Bluke just stare at them,he walks slowly "guys are you mad?"I asked with the most innocent voice plus puppy eyes "never!"they both said

We got to the first store and it's empty which is weird,why is it empty?"uhm I am the only one worried that the store is empty?"I asked as there fetched something  clothes for me "ohh yeah I booked the whole store" Bluke answered as Luke and Matthew give me clothes to fit

They push me in the fitting room,I smiled at there childish behavior.I take off your dress starting with pink suit.It fit me so perfectly,I fitted all my clothes and the only bad ones are the jeans

"Okay I'm done let's go"I said giving Bluke those jeans "no we want to see" Luke said pushing me back,I walked out with a black backless dress with a high silt and it was tight,I walked out "Now on the runway Lotte Mkwena,she is wearing a dress by Matthew, good for dinner dates"I said walking out I stand in front of them posing

"You look.................