- Skz Shifting -

October 3rd, 2023

To be honest, I don't really care if anyone reads this anymore. The comfort of writing about my true feelings somewhere is just amazing.

Anyway, today I was feeling very demotivated. I didn't feel like doing anything. Currently in Perth, we are in term holidays, so I guess that feeling was inevitable. 

I found myself spacing out since I went to sleep at 5: 00 AM.

To be honest, the only thing keeping me going is knowing that I might shift.

I have such loud parents. One goes to work anywhere around 12 AM - 3 AM. The other one goes at 5-7 AM. And in between, another family member coughs constantly throughout the night, and wakes up at 4- 5 AM to brush their teeth. I just want to give up on shifting since the environment isn't helping.

So what if I get into a lucid dream? The coughing is gonna wake me up. If it's not that, then something else will. So what If I'm getting symptoms? They are just gonna make noise.

I don't want this to sound like a novel, but I am genuinely hanging out by a thread. I am starting to hate the sounds of my parents. No, I always did. They always hit the wrong part of your ears. Too high, and they talk too much.

I love them though. Sadly, not as much as I love Stray Kids, since they 'saved' me.

After all of that, let's try to end it on a positive note :)

I will be listening to a lucid dreaming subliminal in the hopes I successfully have a lucid dream. At least I will be able to fly...!

This is me out of the building!