My professor

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POV CHRISTIAN

Fuck

I blink and a tear falls down my cheek, I feel sick, like I want to throw up but not becouse of her, no I want to throw up becouse how could a father allow that? how could a father do that to his daughter? My heart hurt for her and my stomache is in knots. 

Why does she think I would leave? I would never leave her, she's stuck with me, no matter what happens or happened to her I will always care for her. Fuck. I'm whipped. She has me wrapped around her finger. I'm done for. If Stefano knew he would laugh in my face. How could a simple girl make a future Italian Mafia Boss fall for her so hard she's the only one he sees, but that's the thing she's not simple, she extrodenariy, she's everything, she's special. 

I realized I have been quiet for too long becouse when I look up at her I see the disepointment in her eyes as more tears roll down her face. My heart breaks and I quickly grab ahold of her hands 

- hey, I'm not leaving, I would never leave you Gabriella. -

- your stuck with me. - 

I whisper the last part as I rest my forhead against hers. She smiles a sad smile before saying:

- I understand if you want to walk away Christian, I really do, I'm seventeen and I have a horrible past that is catching up to me. And I really don't want you to get hurt in the process, your already rising your job and carrer for me and I would never forgive myself if you got hurt. - 

I smile at her pulling her even closer, 

- I'm not leaving. There is more to me then just a professor baby, I can fight. I have past too and it's going to catch up to me sooner rather then later, I have flaws everyone does. And I don't care about my job or carrer, I'm much more then just a professor baby, I'm a bad man, but I can protect you if you let me - 

She pulls away and looks in my eyes, she slowly nods 

- your a bad man? -

She teases. if only she knew how bad. I shouuld tell her, but if I tell her I'll mix her up in this world and that's not safe. But then again if what every we have will continue she will find out evnetually and then she'll be mad at me for lying and not saying anything and as cute as she is when she's mad I don't want her to be mad at me. 

- I'm very bad. - 

I simply say, I don't have to say more today, I'lll tell her the truth, of course I will but I can't do that now. 

- like mafia bad? - 

I know she was kiding but my body stiffened and she notices becouse she immidiatly pulled away and looked up at me,

- I-I was kidding, a-are you in the mafia? - 

She didn't seem scared but more schocked, still when I didn't say anyhting she got her answear, she slowly stood up from her bed and stood in front of it, close enough for me to reach but far enough that she could still run away. 

- Christian? -

She asks, I take a deep breath, do I lie and tell her something else? or do I tell  her the truth, It would be safer for her to not know but if anyone did come after her I would protecr her, and I really don't want to make her upset by lying to her. 

- yes - 

I slowly say turning to face her, I don't reach for her incase she's scared. My hands fidget in my lap as I wait for her to say soemthing wehn she doesn't I look up to see her frozen, 

- yes your in the mafia or yes becouse I called your name? - 

She suddenly asks, I sigh as I stand up 

- yes, I'm in the mafia, my father is the italian mafia boss and I'll be taking over soon. - 

I explain shortly, I can't tell what she's thinking, she suddenly looks up at me and I see the tears in her eyes onece again today.

- your leaving? - 

her voice breakes and I mentally smile, out of everyhting I said she chose to ask if I'm leaving

- fuck no, I alredy set my conditions. I rule from New York or at all, my father is coming to visit this weekend to talk to me about it, but I'm not leaving I can promise you that. - 

It's true, I alredy told my father if he wants me to be the new boss the only way I'll agree is if I get to stay in New York. He's coming either to tell me that I'm now the new boss or that he found anotehr heir. I absoloutly don't acre if he did, less things for em to worry about. But if I am to be the boss then I'll take care of the mafia, but it's not like I asked to be born into this life. 

- I won't hurt you Gabriella, and I would have told you at some point, I just didn't want to scrae you. - 

I say, she only nods still not looking at me, I take a step her way sloly to not scrae her and put my fingers under her chin tilting her head so she looks up at me

-  Are you scared of me baby? -

I ask sloly while my other hand takes her hair behind her ear, I look at her eyes but they don't tell me anything, she simply looks  at me 

- no, Christian I'm noy scared of you, if you wnated to hrut me you wouldve done that alredy. I'm schoced yeah but I'm not scared.  -

She quietly says, 

- good, ebcouse I would never hurt you intentionally Gabriella, never. - 

She smiles a small smile and stands on her tippy-toes, she peaks my lips and pulls back, I smile and kiss her head pulling her in my arms. 

- I'll kill this guy if he so much as looks at you again okay? - 

She chukles and nods her head yes. I smile and hold her in my arms. I'm fucked, I don't know how it happened since it's only been a week since I met this girl but she got me whipped.