The Seductress

Day 138

It's been four days since I slapped the school renowned player.

Have I sat with them?

No.

Do I plan to?

No.

Although sorry's were exchanged and things were forgiven, I do not necessarily like Colton. After all, he is still the cause of my school wide ostracizement. I guess this must be how Jesus felt when he was hung on the cross.

I seem to be falling and the only thing that can help me is myself. I must continue to pull myself back up. The sad thing about it is that I know eventually I will lose my strength and fall into oblivion.

On an even sadder note: I'm sitting by myself in some random hallway of the school.

I wonder if Justice is mad at me?

Should I talk to him?

I wonder if he'd yell at me like Mikayla?

I had no answer to those questions and that scared me. My mind always seemed to wander to my best friend but I still didn't have the guts to confront him. I avoided him in my classes. In the halls. In the parking lot. Anywhere really.

I guess I was just too scared. Too scared my best friend would reject me.

"Excuse me" a deep voice interrupted my thoughts.

"What?" I huffed, looking up.

"Jessica?" He asked, an eyebrow rose.

"In the flesh"

"Colton wanted me to give this to you," He said handing me a slip of paper.

I took it from his hands and looked at it. It was a note.

A bloody note.

Who the hell sent notes? We have phones! We have mouths! We h- Wait why was messenger guy still standing there?

I looked up once again and gave him a questioning look.

"Did you know when someone gives you something you say thank you?"

Who was this guy? My mom?

"Who are you?"

"A friend of Colton's"

"I have never seen you around. Are you new or something?" Sure I knew I was being sort of bitchy but hey loneliness brings out the worst in people.

"Actually yeah I am. Moved from a few cities up north two weeks ago. I sit at the other table with Trey, Kai, Justice, and some other guys. "

At the sound of Justices name I could feel my eyes start to water.

What the hell was wrong with me? I am the school slut. I don't cry.

I looked at him and blinked a few times getting my watery eyes under control.
"Oh. Okay. Well bye" I said collecting myself.

"They're right. You are a complete bitch. No wonder no one else wanted to give you the note. Hell I wonder why Colton would want to send you a note." He said as he walked away.

I was happy he had gone because my face had visibly dropped and my eyes were burning.

Have you ever needed to cry so badly that your eyes start to hurt? That's how I felt right now.

Curse my emotions. But how could I keep myself together knowing that Justice had the same chance to come give me the note and passed it up.
I guess I am a complete bitch. They're right.