Ethan
11:36 pm
The Bar
I sat drinking my fuckin life away. How could she be so happy without me? I made her who she is just for her to go give herself to a dumbass little boy who don't know her.
He don't deserve Giovanni I do. Im not a cheater anymore but she just don't wanna believe me. I'll show that bitch who she belong to. Who name is written all inside of her.
I called for another shot, after giving me one the bartender told me no more and offered a cab. "Ion need no fuckin cab" i spat and got up angrily from the seat. I bought a bottle of water quickly to sober up and walked to my car.
Sitting, pondering, what to say while I downed the water. I knew what I would say and do. Starting the car I played our favorite song all the way to her house.
I took deep breaths and ate a piece of gum to try to mask the liquor smell walking up to her door. I knocked.
I waited.
I knocked again and she snatched the door open in her mumu looking like I woke her up.
My heart smiled seeing her face again. It's been 8 months since she left. I couldn't help but smile.
"What Ethan? What the fuck are you doing at my house at this time? Matter fact what the fuck are you doing here period?" She spat adjusting her bonnet.
"I came to talk. Can we talk?" I asked cautiously and she shook her head no about to close the door. I pushed the door open moving her out of my way going to sit on her couch.
"Bro get the fuck out of my house Ethan. What the fuck do you want from me."
"Just give me the time to talk to you girl."
"Fine Ethan damn." She sat across from me looking like she wanted to kill me.
"I changed. I mean it this time. I'm doing therapy, I haven't had sex since you, I've been doing better with my self care, I learned most importantly though. I learned from our relationship and I feel like I'm ready for you." I told her sincerely
She stayed silent.
"Or you still wit that nigga" I said with a mug.
"Ethan I left him months ago. And I don't want to be with you anymore. I'm sorry but I don't. I can't forgive and forget and you act like you can't function without me. I'm a space person I can't be with you and you're so attached. I love you I really do but I just can't be with you."
My heart broke more than it already was. My anger rose with every word she said.
She didn't mean that.
Did she?
I nodded and got up ready to leave but I changed my mind. I knew what would make her change hers. She walked me to the door and I turned around once I got outside. Wrapping my hand around her throat choking her but not enough to kill her and I gave her a sloppy kiss.
Her pretty acrylics grabbed at my wrist while she kissed me back and whimpered in my mouth.
I pulled away licking my lips, my low eyes meeting hers. She looked so submissive and vulnerable. She didn't say anything so I accepted it and started my walk back to my corvette. "Come here E." She told me.
