Today my religion was the reason as to why a boy who really liked me had to lose feelings for me...noow this is something that doesn't usually happen.
Surprisingly I have lost interest in speaking...so today I write, everything and everyone is moving and leaving while I'm here to stay and say the goodbyes.
Have you ever been soo angry at someone for being in a situation that really wasn't planned by them but upset with them for not trying hard enough to be out of it?
That's me right now, oh me
Hello...I'm Nikita, in the 10th grade, a decade and half old.
Some say Highschool is where magical things occur but honestly it's the one place that's makes me cringe and wish I was actually in my 90s.
People reading this would think I'm soo focused and worried about how life around me has changed and everyone who has, yeah maybe it's because more natural disasters are happening, how the government is failing to secure a better future for it's people, how the rich are slowing becoming bankrupt and how I still can't do the new tik tok dances...very frustrating right.
I'm tired, it's literally 01:16 in the morning but I'm still up cause I was sleeping all day and dreaming of a life I could've had...if God had different plans for me. Ever been curious about how your life would have turned out if certain events didn't occur...?
The other day I was listening to the radio and it said something about NASA planning on sending Astronauts to the moon again...they are soo fixated on that while I still don't get why they won't just let Catnoir and Ladybug be together without the funny plot twists here and there.
Readers question:
What's that one thing who'd trade to get something precious of yours back?
I just realized I get motivated at midnight and early hours of the morning to do stuff I like...haha.
To have fall for you is something I strongly desire
To have been close to you would have given the brains and confidence to end world hunger
To have locked eyes with you would destroy the loneliness I suffer
To be yours is the only thing that'd make me feel higher
Sigh...to have, why isn't when we?
I am bad at finding you, so why can't you just find me...so it could be a fair play
I wonder about how we'd look in eachothers embrace...
I'm tired of being a hopeless romance.
I'm tired of being a teenager and having to make choices that depend on the fate of my future.
I'm tired of being unable to fully know the truth.
I'm tired of day 269.
Good morning chicos :)
