the nerd and the cheerleader

Part 2 (Joshua)

Thursday 19th March 2010

Journal,

I genuinly have hope for this Ella girl. And by hope I mean that she is mentally capable of being her own person. For example; she invited me over to her house and we worked on the project equally and we were talking and I was smiling and she laughed and everything was nice. She told me about her boyfriend who she makes sound like quite the romantic however I think there may be other information that lies there, and she told me of this music concert that she will be attending by herself as none of her friends particularly like the same music and I told her of the music I like and that I want to be a lawyer and how I think about lyrics like they were air. And she smiled like I'd never seen her smile before. She smiled differently to when David told her a joke or said she was hot, she smiled this pure smile that suited her to a tee. And it worries me how much I liked that smile. It worries me quite a lot. 

When I got home my mother asked me how I was and I said fine. She asked me if Id eaten and I said yes even though I hadn't. The thought of Ella's smile had made me feel quite strange so I was not hungry in the slightest. And now I am here, journal, sat on my bed writing to you and wondering why I am writing souly of her.

Good Night journal, 

Joshua