— 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠.
They just want this pain to go away. This pain, that they live with each day. Make it leave, make it evaporate. Slam the door straight onto its face. Staring endlessly at a wall waiting to feel those tears fall.. they could sit, they could stand but still there will be no way to make the pain go away. Does it get worse as you go on, racing no one but still falling behind? Do they even care, they feel like they're not actually there. No way they would treat them this way, they must be delusional for that would be inexcusable.. Right? Why must this be such a fight. What are we even fighting? Ourself? Everyone else? Why is there no light, where we stand.. where we fall. No one will catch them at all. Not once. Not twice. Not third, none in all. It may be wretched insanity, but still they'll fall. No one to call, no one to blame or to reach out to. If their happiness fades, why doesn't anyone care to see?... Why is it always me. I stand there and cheer them all on with a shout, with a yell but when tables turn it's my own hell. Must I put myself into this place? This closed off space that makes me feel like waste. Sat here wondering why, why I'm still here. What did I do to be placed in such an awful space. Such a crowded little area filled with so many different feelings. Most being negative. Bright being driven down by dark. Rays of sunshine slowly becoming blocked out by rain clouds. Suddenly a rainbow is left, a rainbow nearly drowned out. Darkened by black clouds, turning to small shrouds. Struck up from the sound. It holds. It slips. One day, it's fine but days later if they ever showed such care, they would realize it's only been pretending to be there. The rainbows gone. The clouds are gone. The sun is gone and what's left is nothing. What's left is numbness. What's left is an excruciatingly dull pain, you learn to take away but hold on.. the sun only lasts for so long but for now watch the sun. Take a run little one, you still have... time.
