Life With MB

Final decision... Or not

*roc*

So I asked God for a sign nd he gave it to me. Now it all depends on who it is.

Okay I hope your right

I flipped over the picture nd it was me and ............

STACY??

Okay wow where TF did that come from. I haven't seen her in forever.

The last time I saw her was when I broke up with her to start my life down here in LA. Do u know

that was the stupidest decision in my entire life. That girl meant the world to me. But I had to start

my own life and make a better future for myself. We had the best times together I didn't just like

Stacy I loved her and it broke my heart into pieces to see her cry and beg me not to go. I didn't even

tell her I was leaving until that night. That was the only time I ever cared about someone so much.

No one will ever have the same connection like me nd her did. I want nijjae and crystal too but then

again I think are they the right ones for me. Yea we have a we flirt, kiss nd laugh and just have a great time.

But Were does the personality, love, and passion come in. U also can't forget about the wrongs about them though.

Did u know how that really felt when crystal nd niijae one of my my best friends laughed at me when jahni

supposedly called me out. I felt horrible,empty,like no one was on my side,embarrassed, but most important alone in a world so big I just wanted to go cry in a corner. I know i dont seem like the most caring person out there but i am you just have to get to know me

That was the most terrible feeling ever they were suppose to be there for me through thick nd thin even

when I messed up nd that goes for all of them. But u know what hurt the most was when crystal

said "I would never date him now he just lost his only chance". Then niijae said to back away there's no way I'm gonna win this fight with me nd jahni. Like what the hell! My world was turning upside down. yea I know we made up nd forgot about it but truth is I never did. I always pretend to forget things when i know deep down inside i'll never forget that day. but stacy she was the only one who could tell when i was mad or sum was on my mind.I dont know how but she always just knew. Why did i have to leave her? This question roams in my mind for the rest of my life

I always wondered wat would happen if I saw her beautiful face again. I always hoped to find her one day.

There's alot of questions still to be answered sum may think is it that hard to just pick a girl. It isnt that easy when you have 2 great girls to choose from

Am I taking things too fast?

Me nd crystal barely even tlkn anymore nd I already wanna date her its just sum about her that makes me spazz. Me nd niijae always talk nd she always gotta good vibe but its just I barely know anything about her I wanna get to know her. I need to get to know them better but I wanna see if I could find Stacy first before I make the worst decision of my life. I've gotta fix this once nd for all I just want her to forgive me u know. Everysince that day I left her on the doorstep of her house where it was pooring down raining. I couldn't stop thinking about her. I can't believe I kept this picture after all those years. I wonder how the boys would react to me wanting to find stacey again